乡村重生记

小说本身牵动人的情感，无疑，这完全是精神感受的最高形式。

布列松不是扩充而是删除次要人物。（102）

他的“忠实”是创造自由的最隐蔽最深透的形式。（102）

影片始终用贫乏的影像取代小说家富有感染力的具体描述，影像若隐若现，就因为没有充分展开。（103）

影片与小说相比，影片更具“文学味”，小说反而充满了具体形象。（105）

布莱松没有仅仅借助事件的简化，而是利用真实场景自身的对立创造出电影化的抽象。（107）

布莱松从未向我们展现完整的现实。他的风格化不是凭空假设的象征符号的抽象化，而是建立在影像的对立元素的相互作用造成的具体与抽象的辩证关系之上。（107）

布莱松像德莱叶一样，自然喜爱最富质感的面部特征，正因为它完全不是表演，而只是人的独特印记，是心灵的最明显可见的踪迹：种种面部表情无不升华为符号。他让我们注意的不是心理学，而是存在的观相术。（110）

背离戏剧性的范畴。事件不是按情感的发展最终使精神得到满足的规律安排，事件的连续是偶然中的一种必然，是无关联的动作与巧合事件的串接。每一时刻如同每一个镜头，都有其自身的命运和自由。

一种克尔恺郭尔的“重复”的顺序。这种顺序有别于命定性，正如类比关系有别于因果关系一样。（111/112）

死亡不是苦难的命定厄运，只是苦难的终点和解脱。（112）

原著的这种二次元真实与摄影机直接捕捉到的真实物象不可能彼此扣合、互为延伸和融为一体，相反，这两种现实的并置会突出它们的相异的本性。

两类对应的现实并现于银幕，两者之间在本体论上的不一致性突出了两者唯一共同的尺度，这就是灵魂。（114）

他是重新挖掘出斯特劳亨和德莱叶认识到的人的面部表情的重要价值。而无声电影本质上与声音相对立的唯一特性，是蒙太奇句法的灵活性和表现主义的表演，即实际上因无声的缺陷而采取的手段。（117）

电影语言与伊索寓言的语言一样，是含糊多义的，透过表面现象，我们看到1928年之前和之后的电影只有一部连贯的电影史，即表现主义和现实主义的关系史；声音必须暂时摧毁表现主义，而后再去适应它；而它和现实主义的延伸发展直接相关。（117）

只有深入探讨声音真实性的美学，才能理解对话与相关于对话的影像彼此分离的意义。

音影平行关系延续着可感现实的分立。音影平行是布莱松抽象化与真实性辩证关系的引申，借助它我们最终感受到的只是心灵的真实。（118）

实际上，在这部影片中，声音不是用来填充已然可见的事件：它渲染和扩展事件，犹如提琴的共鸣箱强化琴弦的颤音。

事件正是通过声音与影像的交错，释放出自己的真实含义。（118）

影像的价值不取决于在它之前与之后的影像。影像犹如电容器的平行极板，主要是集聚静态的能量。从影像出发，与声音对应，形成美学的电位差，电压水平最终变得难以维持。

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观众被逐步引入这种感觉之夜，能够表达这些感觉的唯一形式，就是空白银幕上的幽光。这就是这种“无声电影”和它严苛的现实主义所追求的效果：使影像消失，完全让位于小说的文句。

正如马拉美的空白页或兰波的静默是最高超的语言情态一样，在这里，空荡的、没有影像的和完全让位于文学的银幕，标志着电影现实主义的胜利。在银幕的白色幕布上，黑色的十字架像讣告上的十字架一样简陋，随着影像渐渐上升，它变成唯一可见的印迹，表明影像的实在只是一个符号。（119）

《乡村牧师日记》当属别类。它的忠实性与独创性的辩证关系可以归结为电影与文学之间的辩证关系。而是依据原小说，借助电影，构造一部次生的作品。这不是一部与小说“媲美”或“相称”的影片，而是一个新的美学实体，它仿佛是用电影扩充的小说。（120）

《乡村牧师日记》对我们的启发是，利用两者的差异，经由影片强调小说的存在，比利用两者的共同点把小说“化”为影片更见成效。（122）

节选自《电影是什么？》

▍作为电影的故乡，法国可谓人才济济，罗伯特·布列松Robert Bresson便是其中一位。他不仅是法国电影史上粉丝最多的人，也被誉为“法国最受尊敬的导演”，还是塔可夫斯基的偶像。二战期间，布列松曾在德国纳粹的集中营里待过一年，原本是一名画家和摄影师，转行做导演后，他的作品一直以“少而精”著称，个性孤傲，风格简约，主题多以哲学性和天主教思想为主。

▍简单来讲，布列松的电影涵盖以下特点：

极简主义，擅长镜头叙事；

注重电影的文学性，常以画外音、书信、日记等结构形式来体现电影的文本价值（影像的写作）；

用疏离和客观的态度呈现日常生活状态，在戏剧的框架下表现哲学议题；

极其注重声音细节（用他自己的话说：影像和声音应以接力方式轮流运作）；

用故事和画面替代夸张的表演（“人类真正的内心是看不见的”）

▍他的第一部长片《罪恶天使》是法国还在德军占领的背景下完成的，讲述了一个修女试图从精神上拯救一名妓女的故事，可看做今天要介绍的《乡村牧师日记》的前奏，从此他也被冠以“天主教导演”之衔。

▍《乡村教师日记》在故事内容上和《罪恶天使》有相同之处，“牧师”和“修女”都曾竭尽全力去拯救他人，最终他们也都走向了死亡。《乡村牧师日记》延续了《罪恶天使》的压抑，以不加雕饰的画面、悲观的宗教氛围和面无表情的表演方式奠定了布列松的电影哲学和拍摄方式。

▍神父初到村庄，每天坚持写日记，记录平凡的点点滴滴。他有严重的胃病，不吃肉类和蔬菜，加了很多糖的酒、浸泡过酒的发硬的面包和一些水果是他保持头脑清晰和精神强大的简单饮食。他满怀热忱，却被村庄里的孤苦和冰冷予以打击，开始不断地自我否定和怀疑。他渴望像托西教士所说的那样：希望被教民们所拥护和爱戴，被人们所尊敬和服从，每天保守秩序，但现实如同他日记里所描述的那样让人悲观。

▍在布道课上，自称喜欢他虔诚忠实又迷人的眼睛的塞拉法特，即使牧师对他期望很高，却对他很不友善。伯爵家的家庭教师路易斯是每天来做弥撒的人，因为伯爵女儿的羞辱而掩面哭泣，但他却无能为力。老法布赖伽斯不肯为妻子的葬礼花钱，却希望神父给死去的妻子一个体面的下葬。为他诊治的老医生戴尔本德在树林中死去，“上帝是公平的审判者，我们终究要挣扎着面对”似乎预示着年轻牧师所要面对的境遇。他想借助伯爵的影响力和钱财来组建年轻人俱乐部和运动会，但这个意愿被伯爵一再推迟。村庄里的人们，浅薄、功利、没有人会关心自己的灵魂是否被拯救，这让牧师感到徒劳无功、迷茫和无助。

▍好在伯爵夫人是唯一得到年轻牧师所开解的人，她沉浸在丧子的痛苦中难以纾解，对女儿的反叛和丈夫的不忠漠不关心，但是她前所未有的平静是用死亡换来的。死亡是一件困难的事，特别是为了尊严，和不虔诚的人打了多年的交道，遭到无理的羞辱，打起精神来努力奋斗又意义何在？我们并没有发明爱，上帝就是爱，在爱的世界里有它自己的规则，上帝的世界就是我们所生活的世界，如果上帝是哲学家或异教徒的话，我们的悲惨会让他下来吗？每个人都在影响着别人，如果这个世界有某个角落是上帝管不到的话，即使每分钟都有死亡的威胁，伯爵夫人还是会义无反顾带着她的儿子去那里，在这场“祝福”与“超脱”的对话中，施与者给授予者自己没有的东西，这是一件多么的滑稽的事情。

▍在这个无聊刻板毫无生气的村庄里，年轻牧师有着简单的诉求，寻求健康和精神上的平衡，领用圣餐和基督所赐的恩惠，用怜悯和仁爱，去感化教民，成为一方教区的领袖。然而最简单的事情往往最不容易，对自己像关在瓶子里的黄蜂一样严格和挑剔，拯救他人的灵魂变成了寻求自我救赎的途径，最终导致自我封闭，布道者自己的迷茫和痛苦通过死亡来终结。一个灵魂的等待，彷徨，绝望；另一个灵魂的发现，接近，拯救。从这种绝望的气息中我们可以得知导演布列松在人类的交流在现代社会中被断绝，自我的存在价值，生活的本质以及无意义的循环这些哲学命题的思考和探索。

▍太多人的心被现实磨出了茧子，或许如伯爵夫人所说，这是历经长久的羞辱和失望后一种必然的反应，一种保护自己的方式，然而因为这层充满世故的茧子，使得自己与“爱”之间有了再也触摸不到的距离。有人是太讲求实际，就像那个不想为妻子办好一点葬礼的村民，他生活富裕，但不想为此多出钱，对妻子的情分和对死者的尊敬被置于金钱之下；有人是勇气经过长时间的销磨后枯竭，从一筹莫展的生活前彻底死心和退却，就像医生；有人是被恶意与冷漠席卷而去，周围的“恶”唤起了心中的恶劣，最终自己也成了同盟者和敌意深重的人，就如同伯爵和他的女儿。痛苦能够摧毁一个人，也能够孕育出高贵、纯洁的灵魂，因为深刻的痛苦总是能和深刻的爱和深刻的怜悯相连。或许信仰只是给了人类一个契机，它让人变得圣洁，无尽的时间与无尽的罪恶终究一同毁灭，能得到救赎的只有那些圣洁的灵魂。布列松和陀思妥耶夫斯基一样，都相信“痛苦可能成为对不公正甚至是对罪行的一种赎罪，假如自己真正愿意接受痛苦的话。”囚困与自由，爱和信仰，电影就是他的牧师日记。

“你的观众既不是书本的读者，也不是戏剧的观众，既不是展览的看客，也不是音乐会的听众。你既不用满足文学情趣，也不用满足戏剧兴趣，既不用满足绘画特征，也不用满足音乐特色。”—— 布列松《电影书写札记》

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特蕾莎嬷嬷在加尔各答孤儿院的墙上写了一首诗，叫做Do It Anyway。全文如下：

人们经常是不讲道理、没有逻辑和自我中心的
无论如何，你要原谅他们
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

如果你很友善，人们可能会说你自私、动机不良
无论如何，你还是要友善
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

当你成功了，就会有一些虚假的朋友
和一些真正的敌人
无论如何，你还是要取得成功
If you are successful, you will win some false friends
And some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

如果你是诚实坦率的，人们可能会欺骗你
无论如何，你还是要诚实和坦率
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

你多年来建造的东西
可能被人在一夜之间摧毁
无论如何，你还是要去建造
What you spend years building,
Someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

如果你找到了平静和幸福，他们可能会嫉妒你
无论如何，你还是要幸福
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

你今天做的善事，明天就会被人们忘记
无论如何，你还是要做善事
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Be good anyway.

即使你把最好的都给了这个世界
世界可能还是那么缺乏
无论如何，还是要把你最好的给这个世界
Give the world the best you have,
And it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you have anyway.

你看，说到底，这是你和上帝之间的事
无论如何，这从来都不是你与别人之间的事
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
It is never between you and them anyway.

其实这首诗不是她写的，是另外一个人。不过她写了最后那句话。那句话很重要，甚至，我认为比上面所有的都重要。因为那些都是让我们咋舌的好道理，但我们却要问上一句：凭什么？

而嬷嬷给了我们答案：因为说到底，那是你和上帝之间的事。我想，使徒保罗会赞同嬷嬷的这句话，事实上，他自己的一生就是这样，无论遇到任何事，他只对上帝负责。

哥林多前书4：1－5说：“这样，人应该把我们看作基督的仆人，　神奥秘的事的管家。对于管家的要求，就是要他忠心。我被你们论断，或被人间法庭审判，我都认为是极小的事，连我自己也不论断自己。我虽然问心无愧，却不能因此自以为义，因为判断我的是主。所以时候还没有到，你们不要批评，直等到主来；他要照出黑暗中的隐情，显明人心里的动机。那时，各人要从　神那里得着称赞。”

保罗教导哥林多信徒要把他和亚波罗等人都看作基督的仆人、神奥秘事的管家，而他自己也正是这样看待自己的。保罗认为自己是听命于基督、单单对上帝负责的人。因此，他知道唯一对他有权柄的就是上帝，他所在乎的就是上帝对他的判断。而在第2节，他也明确地表达，上帝判断他的标准不是别的，而是他是否忠于神、忠于神所托付他的使命。上帝托付给他的是“神奥秘的事”，在林前2章里已经讲过，就是救恩的奥秘。上帝把救恩的真理托付给他，差遣他往外邦人那里去传福音，他所需要的就是坚持做这件事。因为保罗有这样的自知，所以哥林多信徒对他的论断、人间法庭对他的审判、他自己对自己的论断，他都认为是无关紧要的事。这里“论断”、“审判”、“判断”其实都是一个词，英文就是judge，审判的意思。说到底，他不是要对任何其他人、也不是要对自己负责，而是要对上帝负责。

对于保罗而言，基督台前的审判不仅激励他不顾世界的审判，而且也使他能够不把哥林多信徒的论断放在心上。这是多么难的事情啊！要知道，被敌对阵营的人攻击是很正常的事情，但是被自己阵营的弟兄攻击，那就真是令人伤心了。

从前，著名台湾作家李敖先生和他的第二任太太胡茵梦离婚，是因为他太太在一个国民党组织的李敖批斗会上作伪证，批斗李敖。李敖当天就召集记者宣布离婚，发布会上他散发了一个书面声名，第一条是这样写的：『罗马凯撒大帝在被朋友和敌人行刺的时候，他武功过人，拔剑抵抗。但他发现在攻击他的人群里有他心爱的布鲁塔斯的时候，他对布鲁塔斯说：“怎么还有你，布鲁塔斯？”于是他宁愿被杀，不再抵抗。』可见心爱之人的攻击有何等大的摧毁能力，令一代英雄凯撒放弃抵抗，也令自称是华语文学界五百年来最牛的李敖放弃抵抗，在胡茵梦的伪证下被判入狱。

对保罗而言，最能让他伤心的，恐怕就是他亲自带领信主、为之花费无数心血的这些信徒了。保罗自比是他们的父亲，可见其用情之深。然而哥林多信徒却开始对他有一些不公正的评价，甚至质疑他的使徒权，高举其他教会领袖来压过他。如果是我，该多么难过！

在《乡村牧师日记》（其实不是牧师，是神父）里出现的那个年轻神父，当他用全部的生命去给予，为着这个牧区尽他最大的努力的时候，别人对他怎么样？除了嘲笑，捉弄，冷漠，批评，最好的不过就是一声叹息。为什么叹息？也许是知道他做的是对的，却对的太傻。

我有一次去参加营会，刘同苏牧师讲道，我印象很深。其实他讲了很多东西我都忘了，印象很深的就是一件事。他讲到在美国牧会的一个经历。当时教会来了一个黑人妇女，丈夫酗酒、不供养她和两个儿子的生活，她忙着赚钱，大儿子青春期叛逆，小儿子没有人教育。于是刘牧师和师母就帮助这家人，每天接她小儿子放学，辅导他做功课直到她下班回来。之后又帮助她的大儿子上了大学，交了学费，还冒着风雪开车送他到学校去。之后又帮助她丈夫戒酒，回到家庭中。总之，付出了无数我难以想象的努力，之后这个黑人妇女却要离开教会。别人问她为什么，她说，这个教会的牧师不爱我。当时我听到这件事的时候简直惊呆了。如果她说的是，这个教会的弟兄姊妹不爱我，我还没有这么惊讶。她说的是牧师！而牧师一家几乎都在围着她转。

一个为着服侍摆上自己的人，总要经过这些伤痛。我知道你们也为别人伤害过，特别是那些你们很看重的人。他们或者是你敬重的长辈，或者是你疼爱的晚辈，或者是你一直以来认为是最贴心的同路人，所以他们对你们的影响也会特别大，伤的也会特别深。当我说这些话的时候，我真是心疼你们每一个人。但我还是要用保罗的话与大家共勉，他说到了主来的时候，“他要照出黑暗中的隐情，显明人心里的动机。那时，各人要从　神那里得着称赞。”

有很多事，别人不知道，但是上帝知道，这就够了。

爱因斯坦小时候不是交上去一件非常糟糕的手工作业而被老师嘲笑吗？老师说：我想世界上没有被这更糟糕的小板凳了。但是爱因斯坦却拿出另外两个小板凳，说：不，这两个比那个更糟。

是的，尽管也许有人批评我们是一群对上帝的国度毫无热心的人，有人觉得我们做的不好，有人对我们失望，有人给我们下结论说我们是这样或者那样的人……但是没关系，因为上帝知道关于另外那两个小板凳的故事，以及许多许多别人不知道的故事。上帝知道我们努力了，付出了，坚持了。让我们心满意足吧。

保罗相信，上帝判断他的标准是要他有忠心，而不是要他做的多完美，做的让所有人满意。所以他只要坚持跑完当跑的路、打完这美好的仗、守住所信的道，就必有公义的冠冕为他存留。我也相信，有一天当我们站在审判台前的时候，会像C.S.LEWIS在《狮子、女巫与魔法衣橱》的结尾所描写的那样——战争结束了，大君王得胜了，号角吹响了，每个孩子都坐在宝座上，荣耀的冠冕是属于他们的。与这盛大而华丽的颁奖礼相比，其他的一切都显得那么无关紧要。

所以——无论如何，这是我们和上帝之间的事。

当电影落幕的时候，那个十字架告诉我的，就是这件事。

《乡村牧师日记》（以下简称《日记》）是布列松的第三部作品，改编自乔治·贝尔纳诺斯的同名小说。《日记》通过一系列事件对青年牧师的角色进行塑造，片中多处展开对宗教、上帝及信仰等议题的讨论，使整部影片充斥着超验主义色彩。 影片展现了布列松简约而纯粹的美学风格，即通过非职业演员的使用，旁白与镜头语言的设计等方式，来维持影片与观者之间的距离感，从而直接作用于观者的精神世界。

布列松在《日记》中启用非职业演员，很大程度上是经由前两部影片的拍摄经验，对诗意现实主义的进一步实验与探索。于他而言，职业演员的在表演上的才能恰恰使他们无法还原他所期待的真实，因为习惯的存在，那些细微的动作、神态是应当被裁去的——当观众被这些细节所吸引，便会不自主地进入到影片当中，这样一来，感受的力量就被削弱、被干扰、甚至被阻隔（这种“感受”必须要求观众保持距离，避免“共情”行为的发生，其余的面向方能打开）。“布列松希望观众关注的是面部的生理变化而非人物的心理规律。”（巴赞语）

在此基础之上，布列松大量地采用特写镜头来描摹青年牧师的精神状态（且往往是用一个慢推镜头，最终定格在青年牧师的几乎没有任何表情的脸上），用一个局部来精准地表现他内心的痛苦与不被理解的焦虑。同时，简约的构图也在传达着一个讯息：影片的表达是有所节制的，画面上的留白意味着更多的阐释空间；而由此产生的疏离感成为了超验得以渗入观者感受的切口之一。《日记》中的书写镜头和画外音最能体现这种间离的效果。书写动作和旁白声音作为牧师精神世界的外化，不断穿插在摄影机的视角中，似乎在提醒观众“书写”这一事实才是现在发生的，而关于人物事件的影像则都处在另一层叙事当中，如牧师与伯爵夫人交谈一幕，旁白的突然现身打断了连续的对话，青年牧师的内心活动直白地流露出来。布列松的灵性在于，他并没有使用任何高超的技巧，仅仅依靠淡入淡出的纸笔和简单的声画关系就达成了他的目的。

实际上，“书写”动作已然与青年牧师的精神（灵魂）产生符号意义上的联系，参与到了影片的主题的建构当中。当青年牧师初来小镇，他的信仰是强烈的，书写日记的镜头也较多；当牧师开始对小镇上发生的一切有悖教义的事情感到痛苦，同时深陷怀疑与诬陷的囹圄时，托西的牧师的世俗化又给他造成巨大的影响，他的信仰开始动摇，书写的镜头也随之减少；直到牧师得知伯爵夫人在与自己交谈过后安详地死去之后，他真正确证了信仰的合理性，获得了灵魂的慰藉，于是书写的画面又再度出现。无论是环境的败坏还是肉体的羸弱都指向“囚禁”这一意象，而青年牧师在一次次受难又一步步坚定自己的信仰，他的灵魂愈发靠近上帝，以至于在托西的牧师的请求下为他祝福。大限将至时，牧师手中的纸笔落下（影片另一处“下落”是他的酒瓶砸到地上，飞溅的葡萄酒则指向献身），他最终抛弃肉体后达到终点，成功地献祭了自己，完成了“圣宠”。

1 00:00:49,880 --> 00:00:53,280 改编自乔治·贝尔纳诺斯小说 From the Novel by GEORGES BERNANOS 3 00:00:56,150 --> 00:00:59,250 乡村牧师日记 DIARY OF A COUNTRY PRIEST 4 00:02:00,550 --> 00:02:04,610 编剧 导演 罗伯特·布列松 Screenplay, Adaptation and Direction by ROBERT BRESSON 5 00:02:12,460 --> 00:02:15,760 我不认为绝对忠实地记录下每天发生的事 I don't think I'm doing anything wrong in writing down daily, 6 00:02:15,860 --> 00:02:17,920 有任何过错 with absolute frankness, 7 00:02:18,130 --> 00:02:20,470 毕竟它们只是一段毫无神秘可言的生活中 the simplest and most insignificant secrets 8 00:02:20,670 --> 00:02:22,640 最简单也最无足轻重的秘密 of a life actually lacking any trace of mystery. 9 00:02:24,000 --> 00:02:29,290 昂布里库尔 (法国加来省的一个小镇) Ambricourt 10 00:03:51,290 --> 00:03:53,950 我的教区 我的第一个教区 My parish. My first parish. 11 00:03:58,400 --> 00:04:00,990 难道我必须出于职责的缘故 Must I believe that it's only for duty's sake 12 00:04:01,100 --> 00:04:03,300 而无视自己虚弱的健康状况？ that I refuse to acknowledge my poor health? 13 00:04:04,440 --> 00:04:06,500 我的自行车很有用 My bicycle is very useful, 14 00:04:06,840 --> 00:04:10,070 但倘若我腹内空空 骑上坡路时就会头晕目眩 but I can't ride uphill on an empty stomach without feeling faint. 15 00:04:26,090 --> 00:04:28,560 我刻意不再吃肉或是蔬菜 I deliberately cut out meat and vegetables, 16 00:04:29,430 --> 00:04:35,230 实在饿得头昏 才拿点面包蘸着酒果腹 eating only small quantities of wine-soaked bread whenever I feel dizzy. 17 00:04:35,740 --> 00:04:37,930 我在酒里放许多糖 I add a lot of sugar to the wine. 18 00:04:38,040 --> 00:04:41,370 面包会放个几天直到变硬才吃 I let my bread harden for several days. 19 00:04:42,280 --> 00:04:44,370 多亏这个习惯 我得以脑子清醒 Thanks to this diet, my head is clear, 20 00:04:44,480 --> 00:04:46,880 身体也感觉更强壮 and I feel much stronger. 21 00:04:53,090 --> 00:04:55,950 法博加先生今早来到圣器收藏室 Old Fabregars came to the sacristy this morning. 22 00:05:06,730 --> 00:05:09,260 暂且不论我祷告所需要的报酬 Aside from the fee for my time, 23 00:05:09,470 --> 00:05:11,340 天知道 法博加先生 God knows, Mr. Fabregars, 24 00:05:11,470 --> 00:05:14,200 我想您是希望能使用免费的布料 I'd like you to have use of the draperies for free. 25 00:05:14,540 --> 00:05:16,200 我确实这么想 I should think so. 26 00:05:16,310 --> 00:05:20,040 不过是一堆碎布和补丁拼凑起来的东西 A lot of old moth-eaten rags held together by patches. 27 00:05:20,520 --> 00:05:21,680 花得了多少钱？ What could they have cost? 28 00:05:21,680 --> 00:05:23,790 蜡烛得花不少钱 Candles are very expensive. 29 00:05:23,790 --> 00:05:26,380 真有你的 You do have a soft time of it. 30 00:05:26,690 --> 00:05:29,120 哪有剥削我们穷人的道理 There's no excuse for exploiting the poor. 31 00:05:29,790 --> 00:05:32,120 你可真是爱财如命啊 神父 You like your money easy, Father. 32 00:05:32,230 --> 00:05:35,390 我们对所有人的收费都是一样的 We charge everyone the same. 33 00:05:35,500 --> 00:05:37,460 在我看来事情很简单 As I see it, it's simple: 34 00:05:37,630 --> 00:05:40,470 我只求一件事 就是公平 I ask one thing. It's only just. 35 00:05:40,740 --> 00:05:43,900 让我可怜的妻子体面地下葬 Let my poor old wife be buried decently. 36 00:05:44,110 --> 00:05:46,010 按普通流程来 The usual service. 37 00:05:46,210 --> 00:05:49,730 所以我绝不会多付一个子 你明白了吗？ And for that I'll not pay a penny more, you hear? 38 00:05:57,620 --> 00:06:01,250 去拜访托西神父时 我依旧心绪不宁 I was still distraught when I went to see the priest of Torcy. 39 00:06:04,930 --> 00:06:07,860 上帝 我真希望像他一样身体健康 心态平衡啊！ God, I wish I had his health and mental balance! 40 00:06:16,070 --> 00:06:18,100 你应该把那家伙赶出去 You should have shown him the door. 41 00:06:18,870 --> 00:06:20,530 是的 把他赶出去 Yes, shown him the door. 42 00:06:22,180 --> 00:06:23,970 说起来 我认识这个法博加 Besides, I know Fabregars. 43 00:06:24,850 --> 00:06:26,750 这老头很有钱 The old guy has plenty. 44 00:06:27,080 --> 00:06:29,140 你们这些年轻的教士啊！ You young priests! 45 00:06:30,790 --> 00:06:33,780 你们这些年轻人现在还有什么心志？ What have you young men got in your veins these days? 46 00:06:34,660 --> 00:06:36,950 我那时代 人们培养的是教会人才 In my time they made men of the church, 47 00:06:37,090 --> 00:06:39,220 教区的领袖 真正的首领！ leaders of parishes, real masters! 48 00:06:40,430 --> 00:06:42,830 现在教会派给了我们一些唱诗班小毛孩 Seminaries these days send us choirboys, 49 00:06:42,930 --> 00:06:45,420 小叫花子 总是自以为有多用功 young ragamuffins who think they're working harder than anyone 50 00:06:45,970 --> 00:06:47,940 其实什么事都没做成 because they never manage to finish anything. 51 00:06:48,240 --> 00:06:49,930 碰到一点点困难的征兆 At the first sign of difficulty, 52 00:06:50,040 --> 00:06:53,300 他们就哭哭咧咧说教职和他们想的不一样 气馁不已 they say the priesthood isn't what they expected and drop everything. 53 00:06:53,410 --> 00:06:55,430 我什么也不会放弃的 向你保证 I will not drop everything, I assure you. 54 00:06:55,640 --> 00:06:57,580 除了消除罪恶以外 Besides exterminating the devil, 55 00:06:57,680 --> 00:07:01,050 你另一个梦想就是变得受人爱戴 your other dream is to be loved for who you are. 56 00:07:01,150 --> 00:07:03,520 但一个真正的教士是永远不会讨人喜欢的 A true priest is never loved. 57 00:07:03,720 --> 00:07:06,450 教会才不会管你是不是受人爱戴呢 我的孩子 The church doesn't care a whit whether you're loved, my son. 58 00:07:06,690 --> 00:07:08,250 要受人尊敬 让人们听话 Be respected, obeyed. 59 00:07:08,720 --> 00:07:11,320 要全天候维护秩序 Keep order all day long, 60 00:07:11,490 --> 00:07:14,590 但心里要清楚第二天将又变得混乱无序 knowing full well disorder will win out tomorrow, 61 00:07:15,000 --> 00:07:19,090 因为在这个可悲的世界上 黑夜会把白天所有的工作付诸流水 because in this sorry world, the night undoes the work of the day. 62 00:07:30,140 --> 00:07:32,410 "全天候维护秩序" "Keep order all day long." 63 00:07:34,220 --> 00:07:36,340 当我在削土豆做汤的时候 The priest of Torcy's words came back to me 64 00:07:36,450 --> 00:07:38,720 托西神父的话回荡在我耳边 as I peeled potatoes for my soup. 65 00:07:41,190 --> 00:07:43,210 我的助手从我身后过来了 The right-hand man came up from behind. 66 00:07:48,030 --> 00:07:49,860 好消息啊 神父 Good news, Father. 67 00:07:50,530 --> 00:07:52,090 是我能用上电灯了吗？ I'm getting electric light? 68 00:07:52,300 --> 00:07:54,730 镇政委批准了你的请求 The council agreed to your request. 69 00:07:54,970 --> 00:07:59,100 他们会负担费用 为您通上电的 It will install electricity for you at its own expense. 70 00:07:59,210 --> 00:08:02,300 只是还需要走一些程序 There remain just the usual formalities. 71 00:08:02,510 --> 00:08:05,500 - 会等很久吗？ - 两到三个月 最多四个月 - Will it take long? - Two or three months. Four at the most. 72 00:08:06,950 --> 00:08:10,010 我很想和他谈谈他的卡巴莱歌舞 I'd have loved to tell him a thing or two about his cabaret. 73 00:08:11,620 --> 00:08:13,610 他每周日都举办一次舞会 He puts on a dance every Sunday 74 00:08:13,960 --> 00:08:15,980 称之为"家庭舞会" and calls it "The Families' Ball" 75 00:08:16,090 --> 00:08:19,390 男孩子们以把女孩子灌醉为乐 where boys have fun getting young girls drunk. 76 00:08:19,730 --> 00:08:21,250 日安 神父 Good day, Father. 77 00:08:24,500 --> 00:08:26,190 我没敢说 I didn't dare. 78 00:08:28,170 --> 00:08:30,660 最简单的任务无疑最容易做 The simplest tasks are by no means the easiest. 79 00:08:58,300 --> 00:09:00,100 一个糟糕的夜晚 An awful night. 80 00:09:01,600 --> 00:09:04,470 当我闭上眼睛 悲伤汹涌而来 As soon as I closed my eyes, sadness overwhelmed me. 81 00:09:13,480 --> 00:09:17,710 这个早上我愿意做任何事以换来几句亲切同情的话 I'd have done anything this morning for a word of compassion or kindness. 82 00:09:38,170 --> 00:09:40,440 我非常期待教义问答课 I was expecting a lot from catechism class, 83 00:09:40,640 --> 00:09:43,010 孩子们正为圣餐礼做准备 the children preparing for holy communion. 84 00:09:49,850 --> 00:09:53,080 女孩子们使我充满希望 尤其是塞拉菲塔·杜孟谢尔 The girls had given me hope, especially Seraphita Dumouchel. 85 00:09:53,350 --> 00:09:55,620 圣餐礼是 Communion is 86 00:09:56,690 --> 00:09:58,850 是传……是传递…… to re - to receive - 87 00:10:02,130 --> 00:10:03,600 你来回答？ How about you? 88 00:10:04,800 --> 00:10:07,530 是用来传递…… It's to receive - 89 00:10:09,370 --> 00:10:11,960 通过圣餐圣礼传递耶稣的仁爱 Receive Jesus in the sacrament of the Eucharist. 90 00:10:12,510 --> 00:10:14,600 那么耶稣是怎么创立圣餐的呢？ And how did he establish the Eucharist? 91 00:10:25,020 --> 00:10:27,540 为了创立圣餐 To establish the Eucharist, 92 00:10:27,760 --> 00:10:31,190 耶稣掰开面包分给他的门徒们 说 Jesus broke bread and gave it to his disciples, saying, 93 00:10:31,730 --> 00:10:33,990 "拿来吃吧 这是我的身体" "Take and eat. This is My body." 94 00:10:34,230 --> 00:10:37,460 他拿起酒杯说 "拿来喝吧 这是我的血 He took wine and said, "Take and drink. This is My blood. 95 00:10:37,570 --> 00:10:39,230 "当如此做 以纪念我" Do this in remembrance of Me." 96 00:10:39,430 --> 00:10:42,960 今天的课就到这里 塞拉菲塔 过来拿小红花 That will do for today's class. Seraphita, come forward for a good mark. 97 00:10:48,380 --> 00:10:49,970 其他人可以走了 The others may go. 98 00:11:08,160 --> 00:11:10,130 你期待自己的圣餐礼吗？ Are you anxious to make your communion? 99 00:11:11,430 --> 00:11:14,130 - 不 - 为什么不？ - No. - Why not? 100 00:11:15,200 --> 00:11:16,900 它迟早会来的 It'll come soon enough. 101 00:11:17,610 --> 00:11:20,200 你听得懂我的课 也听得很认真 Yet you understand me, and you listen so well. 102 00:11:21,740 --> 00:11:24,370 因为您的眼睛漂亮极了 It's because you have such beautiful eyes. 103 00:11:33,650 --> 00:11:35,990 她们合伙捉弄了我 They had plotted it together. 104 00:11:36,590 --> 00:11:39,580 为什么她们对我如此敌意？我对她们做错了什么吗？ But why such hostility? What had I done to them? 105 00:11:44,430 --> 00:11:47,160 露易丝小姐天天来参加弥撒 Miss Louise attends holy mass every day. 106 00:11:47,600 --> 00:11:49,730 如果她不来 教堂就一个人都没有了 Without her, the church would be empty. 107 00:11:50,770 --> 00:11:54,640 她在庄园里担任家庭教师 这使我们之间隔阂不小 Her position as governess at the manor dictates a certain distance between us. 108 00:11:56,640 --> 00:11:59,440 今天早上 她把脸埋入掌中 This morning she buried her face in her hands, 109 00:11:59,910 --> 00:12:02,710 而在祈祷时 我发现她有哭过的神情 but at the blessing, I could see she'd been crying. 110 00:12:46,430 --> 00:12:48,160 你一定感到非常孤独 You must feel very lonely. 111 00:12:48,260 --> 00:12:50,060 夫人对我很好 Her ladyship is very kind, 112 00:12:50,160 --> 00:12:53,900 但夏塔尔小姐喜欢羞辱我 对我呼来唤去的 but Miss Chantal enjoys humiliating me and treats me like a servant. 113 00:12:54,000 --> 00:12:55,870 她是你唯一的学生吗？ Is she your only pupil? 114 00:12:55,970 --> 00:12:59,700 伯爵夫人有过一个儿子 但他死了 她很喜欢他 The countess had a son, but he died. She adored him. 115 00:13:00,240 --> 00:13:02,470 庄园里没人再提起过他 No one at the manor ever mentions him. 116 00:13:03,980 --> 00:13:06,280 下周四我会去拜访伯爵的 I'll call on the count next Thursday. 117 00:13:11,350 --> 00:13:13,680 拜访庄园的事让我忧心忡忡 This visit to the manor has me quite worried. 118 00:13:13,790 --> 00:13:15,550 如果能留下好的第一印象 A good first impression could spell success for my plans 119 00:13:15,560 --> 00:13:19,490 我的关于青年俱乐部和运动项目的计划想必就能顺利一些了 for a youth club and sports program. 120 00:13:19,690 --> 00:13:23,690 伯爵的影响力和财力能帮助我完成计划 The count's influence and wealth could help me to achieve them. 121 00:13:53,960 --> 00:13:57,190 (我所需的那块)土地贫瘠 粮仓空空如也 The land is barren and the barn empty. 122 00:13:57,460 --> 00:13:58,860 确实如此 That's true. 123 00:13:59,070 --> 00:14:02,560 我不是要拒绝您 神父 但请给我点时间考虑 I'm not saying no, Father, but give me time to think it over. 124 00:14:13,110 --> 00:14:17,050 据说他对农民们很苛刻 他也算不上模范教徒 He's said to be hard on his farmers, and he's no model parishioner. 125 00:14:17,690 --> 00:14:21,310 但为什么他一下子变成我如此亟需的 Why has he so quickly become the so desperately rare 126 00:14:21,520 --> 00:14:24,360 朋友 同盟 合作伙伴？ friend, ally and companion? 127 00:14:47,050 --> 00:14:49,810 佩格里奥太太会为您做准备 我已经告诉过她 Mrs. Pegriot will prepare it for you. I've let her know. 128 00:14:53,390 --> 00:14:57,080 我没敢告诉他我的胃只能消化干面包 I didn't dare tell him my stomach only tolerates dry bread. 129 00:14:57,960 --> 00:14:59,760 我无福消受他的炖兔子肉 I won't taste his rabbit stew, 130 00:14:59,860 --> 00:15:02,800 再说 为此我还需要付给管家半天工钱 for which I'll have to pay the housekeeper a half day's wages. 131 00:15:03,230 --> 00:15:07,130 我会托一个唱诗班孩子把它带给费朗太太 她会高兴的 I could have a choirboy take it to old Mrs. Ferrant. She'd be delighted. 132 00:15:11,140 --> 00:15:14,600 神父 我赞同您的所有想法 Father, I approve of all your ideas. 133 00:15:14,710 --> 00:15:16,370 噢 我的想法 Oh, my ideas. 134 00:15:16,480 --> 00:15:18,950 但我提醒您 最好不要付诸实践 But I warn you against putting them into practice. 135 00:15:19,750 --> 00:15:21,310 我不明白 I don't follow. 136 00:15:21,850 --> 00:15:24,280 这里的人们有坏心思 The people here are malicious. 137 00:15:24,490 --> 00:15:27,080 相信我 我知道的 Believe me, I know. 138 00:15:27,190 --> 00:15:30,350 如果要我给点建议的话 If I may offer a bit of advice, 139 00:15:30,460 --> 00:15:33,690 我想 别行事过急 well, don't be in too much of a hurry. 140 00:15:33,890 --> 00:15:35,620 别一下子就露出您的手段来 Don't show your hand at once. 141 00:15:36,200 --> 00:15:39,690 别急 不如静观他们的表现 Let them take the first step. There is no urgency. 142 00:15:42,240 --> 00:15:44,600 但是这都是我发自内心想做的 It's just that these things are dear to my heart. 143 00:15:44,710 --> 00:15:47,270 至于我的土地与粮仓 As for my land and my barn, 144 00:15:47,840 --> 00:15:49,870 我不会让您失望 I wouldn't discourage you. 145 00:15:50,410 --> 00:15:52,400 还是晚些再谈 We'll discuss them later 146 00:15:52,610 --> 00:15:56,670 等我们共同研究出一些实际方案再说 when we get down to working out something practical together. 147 00:16:01,390 --> 00:16:04,080 您看上去气色并不好 You're not looking at all well. 148 00:16:04,530 --> 00:16:06,820 您得多注意身体 You should take care of your health. 149 00:16:07,030 --> 00:16:09,120 我的胃十分敏感 My stomach is very temperamental. 150 00:16:16,540 --> 00:16:19,510 先生 我有些迟疑是否该提及您的女儿 I hesitate, sir, to mention your daughter. 151 00:16:19,810 --> 00:16:22,070 我的女儿？怎么了？ My daughter? What is the matter? 152 00:16:23,180 --> 00:16:25,200 我关心她的忧伤 I'm concerned about her sadness. 153 00:16:25,910 --> 00:16:27,970 她的脸上始终闷闷不乐 Her face is far from cheerful. 154 00:16:28,350 --> 00:16:31,750 她的表情有种沉重与僵硬 There is something hard and rigid in her expression 155 00:16:31,950 --> 00:16:33,610 很不符合她的年龄 far beyond her years. 156 00:16:33,820 --> 00:16:36,620 夏塔尔忧伤？您一定是在开玩笑 Chantal sad? You must be joking. 157 00:16:38,160 --> 00:16:40,560 会不会是有人无意中惹她生气了呢？ Could someone be rubbing her the wrong way? 158 00:16:40,760 --> 00:16:44,660 或许她希望从露易丝小姐那儿得到更多理解…… Would a little more understanding from Miss Louise - 159 00:16:46,700 --> 00:16:48,330 您疯了 You're mad. 160 00:17:05,350 --> 00:17:08,340 提到了露易丝小姐显然使伯爵非常不悦 The mention of Miss Louise's name seemed to upset him terribly. 161 00:17:09,060 --> 00:17:10,990 他脸色变僵 His face hardened. 162 00:17:11,890 --> 00:17:12,860 为什么？ Why? 163 00:17:20,270 --> 00:17:22,760 我很快作出决定 I seized the first opportunity to return to the manor... 164 00:17:24,200 --> 00:17:26,370 要抓紧时机再访庄园 a decision I had arrived at quickly. 165 00:17:54,400 --> 00:17:56,630 仆人很快就来应门 The servant was several moments in coming. 166 00:18:14,050 --> 00:18:15,990 我很清楚会遇到伯爵 I was sure I'd meet the count, 167 00:18:16,090 --> 00:18:19,180 他通常星期四下午在家 who was usually at the manor Thursday afternoons. 168 00:18:20,860 --> 00:18:23,330 而我反而见到了伯爵夫人 But I met the countess instead. 169 00:18:23,960 --> 00:18:25,990 我的出现一定出乎她意料 I must have surprised her. 170 00:18:26,100 --> 00:18:27,830 我打扰到您了吗？ Am I disturbing you? 171 00:18:27,940 --> 00:18:30,030 一点也没有 Not at all. 172 00:18:30,270 --> 00:18:32,100 我知道她非常孤僻 I knew she was withdrawn 173 00:18:32,210 --> 00:18:35,330 一直将自己封闭在对死去的孩子的回忆里 and entirely absorbed in the memory of her dead child. 174 00:18:44,450 --> 00:18:47,820 她走了过来 对着一张椅子示意我坐下 She approached, motioning to a chair. 175 00:18:49,490 --> 00:18:52,790 看到您 我就想您来一定是有原因的 On seeing you, I felt you had come with some purpose in mind. 176 00:18:52,990 --> 00:18:55,190 仅仅为了拜访一下 None other than to pay a call. 177 00:18:55,300 --> 00:18:58,090 这么说的话 您并不打算说出原因了 And that you also meant to keep it to yourself. 178 00:18:58,200 --> 00:18:59,670 我向您保证不是那样的 I assure you. 179 00:18:59,870 --> 00:19:01,700 那么是我理解错了 I see I was wrong. 180 00:19:01,800 --> 00:19:04,860 您的教民们可让您非常头疼啊 神父 Your parishioners worry you a good deal, Father. 181 00:19:05,470 --> 00:19:07,500 然而这只是个小小的教区 Yet it's such a small parish. 182 00:19:09,480 --> 00:19:11,210 仅仅在地图上显得小而已 夫人 Small on the map, madam. 183 00:19:11,980 --> 00:19:14,810 你对被委以之任想必还觉得很陌生吧 It's a strange task you've been entrusted with. 184 00:19:16,520 --> 00:19:17,810 是的 夫人 Yes, madam. 185 00:19:18,020 --> 00:19:20,680 对于人生实际是什么 我们所知太少了 How little we know what a human life really is. 186 00:19:21,720 --> 00:19:23,780 尽管来到时我感觉良好 Though I'd arrived feeling fine, 187 00:19:23,990 --> 00:19:26,860 我却突然发觉我无法跟上夫人的谈话 I found myself suddenly incapable of holding a conversation 188 00:19:26,960 --> 00:19:28,990 也无法回答她的问题 or even answering questions. 189 00:19:29,600 --> 00:19:31,560 来的时候我确实走得很快 It's true that I'd walked very quickly. 190 00:19:31,770 --> 00:19:35,200 此前与抱恙的费朗太太交谈花掉我不少的时间 I'd lost a lot of time with the ill Mrs. Ferrant. 191 00:19:35,770 --> 00:19:38,500 神父！天呐 这是怎么了？ Father! Heavens, what's the matter? 192 00:19:40,040 --> 00:19:42,240 您看起来非常痛苦 You seem to be suffering terribly. 193 00:19:44,110 --> 00:19:46,270 痛在哪里？ Where is the pain? 194 00:19:46,810 --> 00:19:48,750 这里 我的胃深处 Here, in the pit of my stomach. 195 00:19:51,250 --> 00:19:53,410 不过没事的 真没事 But it's nothing. Nothing at all. 196 00:19:55,960 --> 00:19:58,980 原谅我 夫人 我得离开了 Forgive me, madam, I must take my leave. 197 00:20:21,520 --> 00:20:23,350 我病得十分严重 I'm seriously ill. 198 00:20:24,020 --> 00:20:27,580 六个月前 我第一次遭受这病痛的袭击 I was first truck by this disease six months ago. 199 00:20:30,360 --> 00:20:32,720 我去见了德尔本德医生 I went to see Dr. Delbende. 200 00:20:36,460 --> 00:20:40,130 他是个老头 据说非常冷酷 现在已经退休了 He's an old man, rumored to be brutal, who's now retired. 201 00:20:40,830 --> 00:20:43,390 托西神父告知他我会来 The priest of Torcy informed him I would be coming. 202 00:20:44,370 --> 00:20:47,770 他用厚实而并不干净的手仔细摸我的腹部 He palpated my stomach at length with thick and unclean hands. 203 00:20:47,980 --> 00:20:49,640 他刚刚打猎回来 He'd just returned from hunting. 204 00:20:50,480 --> 00:20:53,340 感觉不舒服的话 记得过来找我 When things get you down, come and pay me a call. 205 00:20:54,880 --> 00:20:58,610 我不会告诉别人的 不过托西神父和我说起过你 I wouldn't say that to everyone, but the priest in Torcy has spoken of you. 206 00:20:59,750 --> 00:21:01,740 我喜欢你的眼睛 And I like your eyes. 207 00:21:02,560 --> 00:21:03,650 忠实的眼睛 Faithful eyes. 208 00:21:04,520 --> 00:21:06,190 狗的眼睛 Dog's eyes. 209 00:21:06,290 --> 00:21:09,820 你 托西 还有我都是一类人 古怪的一类人 You and Torcy and I are of the same race, an odd race. 210 00:21:10,960 --> 00:21:13,830 和这些健壮的人是同一类人 The idea that I belonged to the same race as these hefty men 211 00:21:13,930 --> 00:21:15,990 这种事我从来没想过 would never have occurred to me. 212 00:21:17,140 --> 00:21:19,700 - 哪类人？ - 坚忍的人 - What race? - The race that holds on. 213 00:21:19,910 --> 00:21:23,770 为什么坚忍？没人确切知道 And why does it hold on? No one quite knows. 214 00:21:24,310 --> 00:21:27,080 还在读书的时候 我为自己想出了一条座右铭： As a school boy I came up with a motto for myself: 215 00:21:27,450 --> 00:21:28,910 "勇敢地面对它" "Face up to it." 216 00:21:29,920 --> 00:21:32,280 面对什么？我问你 Face up to what? I ask you. 217 00:21:33,250 --> 00:21:34,980 不正义？ Injustice? 218 00:21:36,020 --> 00:21:38,460 我可不是要到四处喋喋不休谈正义的那种人 I'm not one to go around babbling about justice. 219 00:21:38,560 --> 00:21:40,750 我从没奢求过正义会实现在我身上 I don't expect it for myself. 220 00:21:41,030 --> 00:21:44,000 我该向谁寻求正义？我不信上帝 From whom should I ask it? I don't believe in God. 221 00:21:44,730 --> 00:21:46,490 我缺乏经验 I'm not very experienced, 222 00:21:46,700 --> 00:21:50,970 但我总能辨认出那种揭示一颗深深受过伤的心灵的口吻 but I always recognize the tone that gives away a deeply wounded soul. 223 00:21:52,770 --> 00:21:54,830 你状态欠佳 You're not up to much. 224 00:21:55,440 --> 00:21:57,210 我很易看出 Just look at that. 225 00:21:57,940 --> 00:22:01,070 谁都能看出来你无法顿顿饱餐 Anyone can see you've not always had enough to eat. 226 00:22:03,850 --> 00:22:06,980 现在已经太晚了 Well, it's too late now. 227 00:22:10,160 --> 00:22:12,130 还有那些酒精 怎么说？ And the alcohol, what about that? 228 00:22:14,290 --> 00:22:15,280 酒精？ Alcohol? 229 00:22:16,630 --> 00:22:19,000 当然不是指你喝的酒 Not what you've drunk, of course. 230 00:22:22,240 --> 00:22:26,500 是说远在你出生之前 就被喝下的酒 What was drunk for you, long before you came into the world. 231 00:22:39,850 --> 00:22:41,790 塞拉菲塔让我很忧虑 Seraphita worries me a lot. 232 00:22:41,890 --> 00:22:43,880 有时候我想 她是不是讨厌我 I wonder sometimes if she hates me. 233 00:22:43,990 --> 00:22:46,320 她以超常的成熟折磨着我 She torments me with such exceptional maturity. 234 00:23:11,650 --> 00:23:13,240 早安 塞拉菲塔 Morning, Seraphita. 235 00:23:32,040 --> 00:23:35,940 那天下午我归还了她的书包 然而她的家人待我非常粗鲁 I returned her book bag that afternoon. I was received very roughly. 236 00:24:08,110 --> 00:24:10,840 是的 我责备自己祈祷得如此少 如此拙劣 Yes, I scold myself for praying so little and so poorly. 237 00:24:11,810 --> 00:24:13,910 然而我有时间祈祷吗？ But do I have time to pray? 238 00:24:18,290 --> 00:24:20,980 在去热思夫雷的路上 我遇到了托西神父 I met the priest from Torcy on the road to Gesvres. 239 00:24:21,190 --> 00:24:23,420 他搭上我送我回教区住所 He gave me a ride back to the rectory. 240 00:24:23,960 --> 00:24:26,360 主教准是急缺神父 The bishop must be hard up for priests 241 00:24:26,560 --> 00:24:28,650 才会把一个教区托付给你 to put a parish in your hands. 242 00:24:29,360 --> 00:24:32,300 我可以给你大量建议 但那又有什么用？ I could burden you with advice, but what's the point? 243 00:24:32,970 --> 00:24:36,800 我以前认识一些解开了最难的难题的学生 I've known pupils who'd solve the toughest problems, 244 00:24:37,040 --> 00:24:38,940 就是那个样子 几乎是在泄愤 just like that, out of spite. 245 00:24:39,640 --> 00:24:41,440 我哪里做错了呢？ Where have I gone wrong? 246 00:24:41,640 --> 00:24:43,230 你太大惊小怪了 You're too fussy. 247 00:24:43,440 --> 00:24:46,000 就像只被关在瓶子里的大黄蜂 Just like a hornet in a bottle. 248 00:24:47,010 --> 00:24:49,380 但我认为你有一个祈祷者的灵魂 But I think you have the spirit of prayer. 249 00:24:50,650 --> 00:24:52,950 修道士可比我们粗鲁多了 Monks are more shrewd than us. 250 00:24:54,590 --> 00:24:57,080 另外 你缺乏普通常识 Besides, you have no common sense. 251 00:24:57,320 --> 00:24:59,380 你的伟大计划只是空谈 Your great schemes don't hold water. 252 00:24:59,990 --> 00:25:03,520 至于关于人的知识 说得越少越好 As for knowledge of men, the less said the better. 253 00:25:04,300 --> 00:25:06,420 直面你的新教区吧 Face-to-face with your new parish, 254 00:25:06,630 --> 00:25:09,160 你太特立独行了 you cut an odd figure. 255 00:25:09,670 --> 00:25:11,140 所以呢？ And so? 256 00:25:13,170 --> 00:25:14,640 所以？没什么 继续干呗 So? Well, carry on. 257 00:25:14,740 --> 00:25:16,830 我还能说什么？ What else can I say? 258 00:25:29,860 --> 00:25:31,290 一个糟糕的夜晚 A bad night. 259 00:25:33,060 --> 00:25:36,290 凌晨三点 我提着灯笼到了教堂 At 3:00 a.m., I took my lantern and went to the church. 260 00:25:48,210 --> 00:25:50,540 我从没这么努力地祈祷过 I never endeavored to pray so much. 261 00:25:51,040 --> 00:25:53,140 起先非常安静 平缓 At first quietly, calmly, 262 00:25:53,350 --> 00:25:57,310 接着 一股近乎绝望的意欲使我的心颤抖了起来 then with an almost desperate will that made my heart tremble. 263 00:26:15,470 --> 00:26:18,200 今早我收到了一封信 信纸很廉价 This morning I received a letter written on cheap paper, 264 00:26:18,410 --> 00:26:20,400 没有署名 unsigned. 265 00:26:21,780 --> 00:26:24,710 "一位好心人建议您能提出调换教区 "A well -wisher advises you to seek a transfer to another parish. 266 00:26:25,810 --> 00:26:27,680 "越快越好 The sooner, the better. 267 00:26:29,920 --> 00:26:32,980 "我为您感到抱歉 但我必须重复：赶紧走" I feel sorry for you, but I repeat: Get out." 268 00:26:53,740 --> 00:26:55,640 我发现了件奇怪的事 I made a strange discovery: 269 00:27:06,550 --> 00:27:08,890 信与这张纸笔迹一致 The handwriting was identical. 270 00:28:08,250 --> 00:28:10,310 又一个糟糕的晚上 Another terrible night. 271 00:28:11,380 --> 00:28:14,320 雨下得如此之大以致我不敢去教堂 It was raining so hard I didn't dare go to the church. 272 00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:26,660 我无法祈祷 I couldn't pray. 273 00:28:35,540 --> 00:28:38,310 我非常清楚 想要祈祷的愿望就是一种祈祷 I know very well that the desire to pray is already prayer, 274 00:28:38,410 --> 00:28:40,810 而上帝并不会要求更多 and that God couldn't ask for more. 275 00:28:42,920 --> 00:28:45,110 但这并非关乎职责的事 But it wasn't a question of duty. 276 00:28:45,750 --> 00:28:49,310 那时 我需要祈祷就像我的肺需要空气 At that moment, I needed prayer like I needed air in my lungs 277 00:28:49,960 --> 00:28:51,980 或我的血需要氧气 or oxygen in my blood. 278 00:28:57,230 --> 00:28:59,990 在我身后已经不再是可以一下子抛弃掉的 Behind me, there was no longer familiar day-to-day life 279 00:29:00,670 --> 00:29:03,030 熟悉的日常生活了 which one can leave behind in one fell swoop. 280 00:29:03,700 --> 00:29:06,040 我的身后一无所有 Behind me there was nothing, 281 00:29:06,640 --> 00:29:08,330 而在我前方则是一堵隔绝的墙 and before me was a wall. 282 00:29:09,180 --> 00:29:10,770 一堵黑色的墙 A black wall. 283 00:29:13,680 --> 00:29:17,310 突然间 我胸口里仿佛有东西碎掉了 Suddenly something seemed to shatter in my breast, 284 00:29:17,780 --> 00:29:20,720 我感到超过一小时的颤抖 and I was seized by a trembling that lasted over an hour. 285 00:29:31,630 --> 00:29:34,000 这会不会只是错觉呢？ What if it had only been an illusion? 286 00:29:34,130 --> 00:29:36,900 连圣贤们都知晓他们有失败 失落的时刻 Even the saints knew their hour of failure and loss. 287 00:29:42,380 --> 00:29:45,780 我在床脚边面地而躺 I lay face-down at the foot of my bed. 288 00:29:46,710 --> 00:29:49,710 我只想表达彻底的接受 I only wanted to show complete acceptance 289 00:29:49,920 --> 00:29:51,380 和屈从 and surrender. 290 00:29:53,820 --> 00:29:57,220 同样的孤独 同样的沉寂 The same solitude, same silence, 291 00:29:58,690 --> 00:30:01,850 然而这次 再也没有希望能穿越这层障碍了 but this time, no hope in breaking through the obstacle. 292 00:30:02,430 --> 00:30:04,920 不 不存在障碍物 什么也没有 There's no obstacle. Nothing. 293 00:30:37,730 --> 00:30:39,560 上帝已经遗弃了我 God has left me. 294 00:30:40,700 --> 00:30:42,500 这点我已确信 Of this I'm sure. 295 00:30:52,880 --> 00:30:55,070 我并没有松懈对待我的职责 I haven't slackened in my duties. 296 00:30:55,680 --> 00:30:59,450 我的健康不可思议地恢复起来 这让我的工作变得轻松些 The incredible improvement in my health makes my work easier. 297 00:31:12,770 --> 00:31:14,700 德尔本德医生？你确定吗？ Dr. Delbende? Are you sure? 298 00:31:14,900 --> 00:31:18,130 德尔本德医生的尸体在巴赞伯爵的树林边缘被发现 Dr. Delbende was found at the edge of the woods near Bazan court, 299 00:31:18,240 --> 00:31:20,600 冷冰冰的 头颅被轰飞 with his skull blown out, already cold. 300 00:31:20,770 --> 00:31:23,800 他滚进了一排树边的土沟深处 He rolled to the bottom of a tree-lined ditch. 301 00:31:24,010 --> 00:31:27,610 人们推测他的枪卡在枝桠间 It's thought his gun got caught in the branches 302 00:31:28,250 --> 00:31:30,380 走火了 and went off. 303 00:31:52,370 --> 00:31:55,830 托西神父在他朋友的尸体边守灵两夜 The priest from Torcy kept vigil for two nights by his friend's corpse. 304 00:31:56,180 --> 00:31:58,440 他显然看起来非常悲伤 He was visibly anguished. 305 00:31:59,880 --> 00:32:02,780 有流言说德尔本德医生是自杀的 It was rumored that Dr. Delbende had committed suicide. 306 00:32:29,980 --> 00:32:32,500 你不认为德尔本德医生是…… You don't think Dr. Delbende might have - 307 00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:35,740 他非常沮丧 He was very disheartened. 308 00:32:36,480 --> 00:32:39,820 他从始至终都坚信患者们会回来找他看病 He believed up to the very end that his patients would return. 309 00:32:40,890 --> 00:32:45,290 他的年轻同事们四处流传说他对消毒药一窍不通 His younger colleagues spread the word that he knew nothing of antiseptics, 310 00:32:45,890 --> 00:32:47,450 于是他的患者们都离开了 and his patients fled. 311 00:32:47,560 --> 00:32:49,890 当然是那些付费的患者 而不是其他的那些 The paying ones, of course. Not the others. 312 00:32:50,730 --> 00:32:54,190 但事实是 他已经失去信仰了 But the truth is he'd lost his faith 313 00:32:55,130 --> 00:32:57,690 而他又无法忍受没有信仰 and couldn't get over not believing. 314 00:32:59,240 --> 00:33:02,330 我的身体状况并不适宜听他这番推心置腹的话 I was in no condition to listen to his confidences just then. 315 00:33:04,140 --> 00:33:07,080 它们如熔化的铅洒在一个伤口上 They were like molten lead poured on an open wound. 316 00:33:08,850 --> 00:33:10,820 我从未感到如此痛苦 I have never suffered so much 317 00:33:11,520 --> 00:33:15,010 就算到死 我也不会再有这样的痛苦了 and likely never will again, even when I die. 318 00:33:15,560 --> 00:33:17,750 如果他真的是自杀 If he really killed himself... 319 00:33:20,390 --> 00:33:21,380 你是否认为…… do you think - 320 00:33:21,490 --> 00:33:24,400 如果其他人要问我这个 If anyone else were to ask me that! 321 00:33:24,600 --> 00:33:26,190 我会回答 "只有上帝才能裁决" God is the only judge. 322 00:33:26,400 --> 00:33:28,460 德尔本德医生是个正直的人 Dr. Delbende was a just man, 323 00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:31,030 而上帝就是正直的人的裁决者 and God is judge of the just. 324 00:33:33,370 --> 00:33:35,170 毕竟 这是一场交战 We're at war, after all. 325 00:33:35,380 --> 00:33:37,710 人总得面对敌人 One must face the enemy. 326 00:33:37,910 --> 00:33:41,240 正如他说的 "勇敢地面对它" 你记得他的座右铭吧？ "Face up to it," as he used to say. You remember his motto? 327 00:34:22,720 --> 00:34:24,750 不 我并没有失去信仰 No, I haven't lost faith. 328 00:34:26,060 --> 00:34:28,530 这一突然且残酷的考验 This abrupt and cruel ordeal 329 00:34:28,730 --> 00:34:31,890 也许震慑了我的理智和神经 may have upset my reason, my nerves. 330 00:34:32,730 --> 00:34:35,060 但我信仰仍存 我能感受得到 But my faith remains. I can feel it. 331 00:34:47,080 --> 00:34:49,170 我站起身来 因为似乎明确地感觉到 I stood up with the feeling, 332 00:34:49,380 --> 00:34:52,110 听到有什么人在呼唤我 the certainty, that I had heard someone calling me. 333 00:34:58,890 --> 00:35:01,660 然而我知道并不会发现任何人 Yet I knew I wouldn't find anyone. 334 00:35:47,740 --> 00:35:49,500 你会信守诺言的吧？ You'll keep your word? 335 00:35:49,710 --> 00:35:52,410 年轻的女士 我会按我说的去做 Young lady, I will do what I promise. 336 00:36:02,790 --> 00:36:04,450 我被压服了 I was overwhelmed. 337 00:36:06,160 --> 00:36:08,720 我从来不懂得人们 也永远不会懂得了 I know nothing of people and never will. 338 00:36:19,610 --> 00:36:21,510 我跑去托西神父那里 I ran to Torcy. 339 00:36:39,390 --> 00:36:41,490 神父不在家 Father is away. 340 00:36:42,500 --> 00:36:45,490 没有个十天八天他是不会回来的 He won't be back for eight or ten days at least. 341 00:36:48,100 --> 00:36:51,000 我失望极了 只好靠着墙 I was so disappointed. I had to lean against the wall. 342 00:37:20,600 --> 00:37:22,400 你知道我不能在这儿接待你 You know I can't receive you here. 343 00:37:24,400 --> 00:37:26,740 你承诺了要做的事 What you promised to do 344 00:37:26,910 --> 00:37:28,600 今天必须做到 must be done today. 345 00:37:29,340 --> 00:37:31,040 明天就太晚了 Tomorrow will be too late. 346 00:37:32,080 --> 00:37:34,270 她已经知道我去过你的住所了 She knew I'd been to the rectory. 347 00:37:34,680 --> 00:37:37,480 她简直狡猾得像只狐狸！ She is as sly as an animal! 348 00:37:39,120 --> 00:37:42,750 我曾经信任过她 当你习惯了她的眼神 I trusted her. You get used to her eyes. 349 00:37:43,360 --> 00:37:45,220 你会以为她是善良的 You imagine they're kind. 350 00:37:46,590 --> 00:37:49,120 现在我简直想挖出她那双眼睛 Now I'd like to tear out those eyes of hers 351 00:37:50,660 --> 00:37:53,190 用脚踩在它们上面 就像这样！ and stamp on them with my foot, like this! 352 00:37:53,930 --> 00:37:55,660 你不害怕上帝吗？ Have you no fear of God? 353 00:37:55,770 --> 00:37:57,530 我要杀了她！ I'll kill her! 354 00:37:57,700 --> 00:37:59,970 杀了她 或者杀了我自己！ Kill her or kill myself! 355 00:38:00,740 --> 00:38:02,970 你不能呆在这里 You mustn't stay here. 356 00:38:04,980 --> 00:38:07,810 只有一个地方 我才能听你说 There's only one place I can listen to you. 357 00:38:15,050 --> 00:38:16,680 跪下 On your knees. 358 00:38:20,090 --> 00:38:22,220 我不想忏悔 I don't want to confess. 359 00:38:24,830 --> 00:38:27,460 你很清楚 我所要的只是公正 You know quite well all I ask is justice. 360 00:38:30,940 --> 00:38:33,730 自从那个魔鬼般的女人来到我们家里…… Ever since that beastly woman came to the house - 361 00:38:33,940 --> 00:38:34,910 冷静 Stay calm. 362 00:38:35,110 --> 00:38:36,800 我很冷静 I am calm. 363 00:38:37,340 --> 00:38:39,900 我希望你能像我一样冷静 I wish you could be as calm as I am. 364 00:38:41,810 --> 00:38:43,750 昨晚我听到他们说的了 I heard them last night. 365 00:38:44,480 --> 00:38:46,880 我在他们的窗户外 I was under their window. 366 00:38:47,490 --> 00:38:49,320 他们甚至都不拉上窗帘！ They don't even draw the curtains! 367 00:38:50,620 --> 00:38:53,490 我知道他们想方设法要摆脱我 I know they'll get rid of me somehow. 368 00:38:54,630 --> 00:38:56,720 下周二我就离开这里 I am to leave next Tuesday. 369 00:38:57,060 --> 00:39:00,400 妈妈认为这样非常恰当 也可行 Mama finds it very proper and practical. 370 00:39:01,530 --> 00:39:04,770 她居然说恰当！简直好笑 Proper! It's enough to make you laugh. 371 00:39:06,540 --> 00:39:09,410 但她对他们所有的话都毫不怀疑 But she believes anything they tell her, 372 00:39:09,940 --> 00:39:12,500 简直就像青蛙吞苍蝇 like a frog swallowing flies. 373 00:39:12,780 --> 00:39:14,770 不要这样谈论你的母亲 Don't speak of your mother that way. 374 00:39:16,250 --> 00:39:18,010 这样显得你并不爱她 You don't love her. 375 00:39:19,850 --> 00:39:22,010 你甚至…… - 继续说 我恨她！ You even - - Go on. I hate her! 376 00:39:22,250 --> 00:39:23,920 我一直以来都恨她 I've always hated her. 377 00:39:24,320 --> 00:39:26,260 她是个傻子 还是个懦夫 She's a fool and a coward. 378 00:39:26,460 --> 00:39:28,790 从来不能捍卫自己的幸福 Never could stand up for her own happiness. 379 00:39:29,900 --> 00:39:31,890 你为什么用这个样子看我？ Why do you look at me like that? 380 00:39:32,930 --> 00:39:34,730 让我一个人静静 Leave me alone. 381 00:39:34,830 --> 00:39:36,890 如果你爱你父亲 If you loved your father, 382 00:39:37,270 --> 00:39:39,400 你就不会如此反抗他 you wouldn't be in this state of revolt. 383 00:39:39,510 --> 00:39:41,770 我已不再尊敬他了 I no longer respect him. 384 00:39:42,240 --> 00:39:45,340 我恨他 我恨他们所有人 I think I hate him. I hate them all. 385 00:39:46,180 --> 00:39:48,580 我要报仇 我要逃跑 I'll get my revenge. I'll run away. 386 00:39:48,780 --> 00:39:51,250 我要羞辱自己 并且要让他知道 I'll disgrace myself and make sure he hears of it. 387 00:39:51,350 --> 00:39:53,250 然后他就会和我一样痛苦 Then he'll suffer as I have. 388 00:39:54,420 --> 00:39:56,980 我似乎能从她的唇间读出 It seemed I could read on her lips 389 00:39:57,190 --> 00:39:59,250 一些她并未明说的言辞 other words that went unspoken. 390 00:39:59,430 --> 00:40:01,150 你不能那么做 You'll do no such thing. 391 00:40:03,030 --> 00:40:05,430 我知道真正诱惑你的并不是那些事 I know that's not what's really tempting you. 392 00:40:08,730 --> 00:40:10,530 把信给我 Give me that letter. 393 00:40:12,440 --> 00:40:14,240 你口袋里的那封信 The letter you have in your pocket. 394 00:40:17,380 --> 00:40:19,740 我想到什么就说什么 I said whatever came to me, 395 00:40:20,080 --> 00:40:24,140 然而 很奇怪的是 我确信我是对的 and yet, strangely enough, I was sure I was right. 396 00:40:24,380 --> 00:40:26,280 把它给我 Give it to me. 397 00:40:29,420 --> 00:40:32,690 她并没有抗拒 把信交给了我 She didn't try to resist, and handed me the letter. 398 00:40:46,610 --> 00:40:48,630 你一定是魔鬼！ You must be the devil! 399 00:41:11,600 --> 00:41:13,860 "致我的父亲" TO MY FATHER 400 00:41:14,770 --> 00:41:17,570 我没有读信 直接扔进了火中 I threw the letter into the fire, unread. 401 00:41:18,100 --> 00:41:22,160 任何一个神父面对她的痛苦都会颤抖不已 Hers was a distress no priest should approach without trembling. 402 00:41:23,540 --> 00:41:27,070 我认为我从她的眼中读到了自杀的想法 I thought I read suicide in her eyes. 403 00:41:28,410 --> 00:41:30,780 但也许那只是转瞬即逝的冲动 But perhaps it was only a fleeting impulse 404 00:41:30,980 --> 00:41:33,140 其狂热使它变得可疑 whose very fervor made it suspect. 405 00:41:33,820 --> 00:41:37,590 我只是一个可悲的 无用的神父 别无其他 I was nothing but a miserable, unworthy priest. 406 00:41:38,990 --> 00:41:42,550 我根本不该接待夏塔尔小姐 也不该听她说话 I shouldn't have received Miss Chantal or listened to her. 407 00:41:43,500 --> 00:41:45,160 当时 上帝是在惩罚我 God was punishing me. 408 00:41:45,900 --> 00:41:48,420 我知道 一言既出驷马难追 I knew my words could not be taken back 409 00:41:48,630 --> 00:41:50,800 正因如此 我必须参与到事情结束 and that I had to see it to the end. 410 00:42:24,270 --> 00:42:26,800 我害怕她会做出些冲动的事 I fear she may do something rash. 411 00:42:28,340 --> 00:42:30,310 她才不会呢 That's the last thing she'd do. 412 00:42:30,510 --> 00:42:32,670 她怕死得很 She's terribly afraid of death. 413 00:42:34,180 --> 00:42:36,670 恰是这种人才会做出结束自己生命的事 Those are the ones who kill themselves. 414 00:42:38,420 --> 00:42:42,510 这肯定是你听来的 因为你自己不可能经历过这些 Someone must have told you that. It's outside your personal experience. 415 00:42:44,060 --> 00:42:45,960 你自己害怕死亡吗？ Are you yourself afraid of death? 416 00:42:49,930 --> 00:42:51,420 是的 夫人 Yes, madam. 417 00:42:52,970 --> 00:42:55,490 但是 让我诚恳地说： But let me be quite frank: 418 00:42:57,700 --> 00:43:00,040 赴死是困难的 To die is difficult. 419 00:43:01,910 --> 00:43:04,500 尤其是对于自尊心强的人来说 Especially for the proud. 420 00:43:06,780 --> 00:43:09,040 所以尽管我怕死 但比不上你们 I fear my death less than yours. 421 00:43:22,830 --> 00:43:25,090 我丈夫想让谁留在这里都可以 My husband can keep whomever he likes here. 422 00:43:26,270 --> 00:43:28,700 另外 那个家庭教师没钱养活自己 Besides, the governess has no money. 423 00:43:29,000 --> 00:43:32,460 或许他近来确实过于殷勤 过于亲近了 Perhaps he's been too attentive, too familiar... 424 00:43:34,740 --> 00:43:36,970 但我未尝其实并不在乎？ but suppose I don't care? 425 00:43:37,710 --> 00:43:41,080 这些年 无数的不忠与背叛 After putting up all these years with countless infidelities, 426 00:43:41,210 --> 00:43:43,580 荒唐的屈辱 我都忍受过了 suffering absurd humiliations, 427 00:43:44,320 --> 00:43:47,050 我作为一个老女人 shall I now, as an old woman - 428 00:43:47,320 --> 00:43:48,620 已经顺从一切了 to which I'm well resigned - 429 00:43:48,720 --> 00:43:51,520 现在叫我睁开眼睛 撕咬争斗 抓住机会 有何意义？ open my eyes, put up a fight, take chances? For what? 430 00:43:51,720 --> 00:43:54,450 难道我该关心女儿的荣誉甚于关心自己的吗？ Shall I care more about my daughter's pride than my own? 431 00:43:54,630 --> 00:43:56,990 让她自己去忍受吧 就像我曾经那样 Let her put up with it as I have. 432 00:43:57,200 --> 00:43:58,820 夫人 请您谨慎 Madam, be careful. 433 00:43:59,030 --> 00:44:00,260 对什么谨慎？ Of what? 434 00:44:00,470 --> 00:44:02,870 对谁？对你？ Of whom? Of you? 435 00:44:02,970 --> 00:44:04,730 别夸大其词了 Let's not overdramatize. 436 00:44:05,040 --> 00:44:08,840 这些想法不会左右我的行事 我的过去没有什么让我羞耻的 Such thoughts don't dictate my conduct. There's nothing in my past to blush about. 437 00:44:08,940 --> 00:44:11,340 如果罪恶让我们懂得羞耻 那么它就值得祝福 Blessed is sin if it teaches us shame. 438 00:44:11,440 --> 00:44:15,140 你只会说教！难道你是在担心我吗？ Nothing but words! Are you trying to worry me? 439 00:44:16,120 --> 00:44:18,740 你不会的 我头脑太清醒了 Well, you won't. I have too much sense. 440 00:44:28,630 --> 00:44:32,530 总之 我们都因自己的行为受裁决 我做错了什么吗？ Anyway, we'll be judged by our acts. What have I done wrong? 441 00:44:33,770 --> 00:44:36,170 你在把一个孩子赶出家门 You're throwing a child out of her home, 442 00:44:36,470 --> 00:44:38,730 并且你知道那是无法挽回的 and you know it's forever. 443 00:44:38,840 --> 00:44:40,600 那只是我丈夫的意愿 It's my husband's wish. 444 00:44:40,710 --> 00:44:42,140 如果他错了…… If he's wrong - 445 00:44:42,340 --> 00:44:44,740 他相信她会回来的 He believes she'll come back. 446 00:44:45,140 --> 00:44:47,170 你这么认为吗？ And do you believe that? 447 00:44:52,380 --> 00:44:55,220 - 上帝会让你心碎的 - 让我心碎？ - God will break you. - Break me? 448 00:44:55,990 --> 00:44:57,750 祂已经让我心碎了 He has broken me already. 449 00:45:03,000 --> 00:45:04,930 祂带走了我的儿子 God took my son from me. 450 00:45:05,360 --> 00:45:07,490 祂还能对我做什么？ What more can he do to me? 451 00:45:07,700 --> 00:45:09,260 我已经不再惧怕祂了 I no longer fear him. 452 00:45:10,300 --> 00:45:12,930 上帝只是暂时带走他 God took him away for a time, 453 00:45:13,370 --> 00:45:14,670 而你的铁石心肠…… but your hardness - 454 00:45:14,770 --> 00:45:15,870 住嘴 Silence. 455 00:45:17,080 --> 00:45:19,140 不 我要继续说 No, I will not be silent. 456 00:45:19,550 --> 00:45:22,510 你如此冰冷的心肠 将使你永远都无法再接近他 The coldness of your heart may keep you from him forever. 457 00:45:23,520 --> 00:45:26,950 这是亵渎！上帝从不复仇！ That's blasphemy! God does not take revenge! 458 00:45:27,050 --> 00:45:29,750 这不过是凡人们空洞的说辞 Those are mere human words, 459 00:45:30,120 --> 00:45:32,020 只对你有意义 with no meaning except for you. 460 00:45:32,220 --> 00:45:34,280 你是在说我的儿子会恨我吗？ Are you saying my son might hate me? 461 00:45:34,930 --> 00:45:38,260 你们再也没有机会见到彼此 了解彼此了 You will no longer see or know each other. 462 00:45:38,360 --> 00:45:40,490 没有任何罪恶会遭受这样的惩罚 No sin could make such a punishment just. 463 00:45:40,600 --> 00:45:42,360 真太疯狂了！ This is madness! 464 00:45:42,470 --> 00:45:43,960 是疯子的妄想 A sick man's dreams. 463 00:45:44,170 --> 00:45:48,110 当我在这位蛮横的女人面前依靠身后的墙时 With my back against the wall before this imperious woman, 466 00:45:48,970 --> 00:45:52,380 我看起来简直像个罪人 正徒劳地为自己辩解 I looked like a guilty man trying in vain to justify himself. 467 00:45:53,580 --> 00:45:55,480 也许我就是那样的人 Perhaps that's what I was. 468 00:45:56,010 --> 00:45:58,810 你听到我说的话吗？听明白了吗？ Did you hear me? Did you understand? 469 00:46:00,820 --> 00:46:02,620 不 夫人 我没有听见 No, madam, I didn't hear. 470 00:46:04,760 --> 00:46:07,420 坐下 你现在不适宜去任何地方 Sit down. You're in no condition to go anywhere. 471 00:46:08,790 --> 00:46:12,250 我说的是 这世界上没有任何罪恶会遭受这样的惩罚 I was saying that no sin on earth could make such punishment just. 472 00:46:13,000 --> 00:46:15,430 没有任何东西会将我们同我们所爱的事物分开 Nothing can part us from those we have loved 473 00:46:15,630 --> 00:46:18,100 我们爱它们甚于生命 甚于得救本身 more than life, more than salvation itself. 474 00:46:18,340 --> 00:46:21,030 爱比死亡更强大 你的经文就是这么说的 (注：《旧约》雅歌8:6有云"爱情如死之坚强") Love is stronger than death. Your scriptures say so. 475 00:46:21,240 --> 00:46:23,670 我们并没有发明爱 We did not invent love. 476 00:46:24,480 --> 00:46:26,940 爱有它自己的规则 It has its order, its law. 477 00:46:27,610 --> 00:46:29,410 上帝是它的主宰 God is its master. 478 00:46:30,320 --> 00:46:32,480 祂并非爱的主宰 He is not the master of love. 479 00:46:32,920 --> 00:46:34,750 祂就是爱本身 He is love itself. 480 00:46:36,720 --> 00:46:39,620 如果您愿爱 就不要将自己置于爱触不到的地方 If you would love, don't place yourself beyond love's reach. 481 00:46:39,730 --> 00:46:42,590 真是疯了！你对我说话就像对待犯人一样 This is insane! You speak to me as you would to a criminal. 482 00:46:43,430 --> 00:46:45,120 难道我丈夫的不忠 Do my husband's infidelities 483 00:46:45,230 --> 00:46:48,500 我女儿的冷漠 叛逆 仇恨都不算什么吗？ and my daughter's indifference and rebellion and hatred count for nothing? 484 00:46:48,600 --> 00:46:50,830 你尽管斥责这些都是我的过错好了！ You might as well say it's all my fault! 485 00:46:53,370 --> 00:46:56,670 无人能知道一个邪恶的念头会孕育出何种结果 No one knows what can come of an evil thought in the long run. 486 00:46:58,640 --> 00:47:01,580 我们身上隐匿的罪恶会染污空气 从而毒害他人 Our hidden faults poison the air others breathe. 487 00:47:01,710 --> 00:47:04,810 要是抱着这种想法 你每一天都将熬不下去！ You'd never get through the day if you dwelt on such thoughts! 488 00:47:07,220 --> 00:47:08,850 我相信你说的 夫人 I believe that, madam. 489 00:47:10,290 --> 00:47:12,850 我相信 如果上帝用一个清晰理念告知我们 I believe if God gave us a clear idea 490 00:47:13,590 --> 00:47:17,260 我们在善恶之间是如何紧密相连的话 of how closely we are bound to each other in good and evil, 491 00:47:18,200 --> 00:47:20,030 我们的确是活不下去的 we truly could not live. 492 00:47:20,230 --> 00:47:22,960 请教你 这种隐匿的罪恶是什么？ Pray tell, what is this hidden sin? 493 00:47:28,640 --> 00:47:30,570 你必须顺从 You must resign yourself. 494 00:47:31,480 --> 00:47:32,940 打开你的心 Open your heart. 495 00:47:33,150 --> 00:47:35,200 顺从？顺从什么？ Resign myself? To what? 496 00:47:37,750 --> 00:47:39,510 难道我还不够顺从吗？ Am I not resigned? 497 00:47:39,720 --> 00:47:41,690 如果我不顺从的话 我早就死了！ If I weren't, I'd be dead. 498 00:47:42,290 --> 00:47:45,310 顺从？我已经过于顺从了 Resigned? I've been too much so. 499 00:47:45,520 --> 00:47:47,820 我真该自杀！ I should have killed myself! 500 00:47:48,590 --> 00:47:51,120 我说的不是这种顺从 That's not the resignation I mean. 501 00:47:51,330 --> 00:47:53,320 那又怎样？我去参加弥撒 Then what? I go to Mass. 502 00:47:53,430 --> 00:47:56,400 我本可以完全放弃敬拜活动的 实际上我考虑过 I could have given up worship altogether. Indeed, I thought of it. 503 00:47:58,300 --> 00:48:00,240 你斗胆如此对待上帝！ How dare you treat God like that! 504 00:48:00,340 --> 00:48:03,330 我曾平静地活着 我值得在平静中死去 I lived in peace, and I should have died in peace. 505 00:48:03,780 --> 00:48:05,400 那已经不可能了 That is no longer possible. 506 00:48:05,610 --> 00:48:07,580 上帝对我来说已经不再重要 God has ceased to matter to me. 507 00:48:07,750 --> 00:48:11,440 逼迫我承认我恨祂到底能让你得到什么好处 愚人？ What will you gain by making me admit I hate Him, you fool? 508 00:48:15,250 --> 00:48:17,310 你现在已经不恨祂了 You don't hate Him now. 509 00:48:17,820 --> 00:48:20,220 你和祂如今终于直面相对了 Now at last you are face-to-face. 510 00:48:20,760 --> 00:48:22,850 祂 和你 He and you. 511 00:48:37,380 --> 00:48:40,240 - 你敢发誓…… - 你不能跟上帝讨价还价 - Do you swear - - You can't bargain with God. 512 00:48:40,350 --> 00:48:42,580 你必须无条件地屈服于祂 You must yield to Him unconditionally. 513 00:48:43,880 --> 00:48:46,010 然而 我能向你保证 But I can assure you 514 00:48:46,120 --> 00:48:49,090 并不存在两个国 一个属于生者 一个属于死者 there isn't one kingdom for the living and one for the dead. 515 00:48:50,360 --> 00:48:53,290 只存在一个国 上帝的国 我们都在其中 There is only the kingdom of God, and we are within it. 516 00:48:54,560 --> 00:48:57,220 在这之前一小段时间里 你知道我在想什么吗？ You know what I was wondering a moment ago? 517 00:48:57,830 --> 00:48:59,990 也许我不该告诉你 Perhaps I shouldn't tell you. 518 00:49:01,430 --> 00:49:03,160 我刚才对自己说 I was saying to myself, 519 00:49:03,300 --> 00:49:07,140 "如果在这世界或别的世界上 有上帝所无法掌控的地方 "If there were, in this world or the other, some place free from God, 520 00:49:07,770 --> 00:49:11,000 "就算在那里要每一秒钟经受一次死亡 永生永世 if it meant suffering a death every second, eternally, 521 00:49:12,110 --> 00:49:15,880 "我也愿意带着我的儿子到那里去 I'd carry my son to that place, 522 00:49:17,220 --> 00:49:18,840 "然后对上帝说： and I'd say to God: 523 00:49:19,050 --> 00:49:21,580 '尽祢所能 做出最坏的事来压垮我们吧！'" 'Do Your worst and crush us!'" 524 00:49:22,550 --> 00:49:23,850 这可怕吗？ Is that monstrous? 525 00:49:27,990 --> 00:49:29,890 你说不可怕是什么意思？ What do you mean, no? 526 00:49:31,000 --> 00:49:32,860 因为我也一样…… Because I too... 527 00:49:34,270 --> 00:49:36,060 有时会这样想 have felt that way at times. 528 00:49:36,270 --> 00:49:38,860 德尔本德医生的形象出现在我面前 Dr. Delbende's image was before me. 529 00:49:39,440 --> 00:49:42,640 他那衰老却坚定的目光正注视着我 His old, unflinching eyes were on me. 530 00:49:43,240 --> 00:49:45,400 那种我惧怕去读解的目光 Eyes which I feared to read. 531 00:49:49,510 --> 00:49:52,010 如果我们的上帝与异教徒或哲学家们的上帝一样 If our God were the god of the pagans or philosophers, 532 00:49:52,320 --> 00:49:54,880 尽管他也许会去最高的天堂中避难 though he might take refuge in the highest heavens, 533 00:49:55,820 --> 00:49:58,380 我们的苦难也会将他唤回人间 our misery would drag him down. 534 00:49:58,960 --> 00:50:01,290 但你也知道 我们的上帝并没有躲藏 But as you know, ours did not wait. 535 00:50:02,260 --> 00:50:04,460 你能对祂施以拳脚 You might shake your fist at Him, 536 00:50:05,060 --> 00:50:06,790 向祂脸上吐痰 spit in His face, 537 00:50:07,000 --> 00:50:08,560 用刑杖鞭打祂 whip Him with rods, 538 00:50:08,800 --> 00:50:11,270 最后将祂钉在十字架上 and finally nail Him to a cross. 539 00:50:12,300 --> 00:50:13,790 那又有什么关系呢？ What would it matter? 540 00:50:13,910 --> 00:50:16,900 事已至此 - 我需要对祂说什么话？ It is already done. - What must I say to Him? 541 00:50:17,510 --> 00:50:18,480 说： Say: 542 00:50:19,850 --> 00:50:21,570 愿祢的国降临 Thy kingdom come. 543 00:50:22,250 --> 00:50:24,110 愿祢的国降临 Thy kingdom come. 544 00:50:25,250 --> 00:50:27,180 愿祢的旨意得行 Thy will be done. 545 00:50:28,450 --> 00:50:29,480 我说不出口 I can't. 546 00:50:29,690 --> 00:50:32,050 仿佛我要再次失去他 It's as if l were losing him twice over. 547 00:50:32,720 --> 00:50:36,350 您所愿望降临的国 既是您的也是他的 The kingdom whose coming you have just wished for is yours and his. 548 00:50:41,630 --> 00:50:43,830 那么 就让这个国降临吧！ Then let that kingdom come! 549 00:50:53,010 --> 00:50:55,710 我想必是憎恨过上帝 所以做出过那种冒犯的事 I must have hated God to insult him as I did. 550 00:50:56,420 --> 00:50:59,250 我搞不好将要怀恨于心地走进坟墓 I might have died with that hatred on my heart. 551 00:51:07,130 --> 00:51:09,590 一个小时前 我的生活貌似还井然有序 An hour ago, my life seemed to me in order, 552 00:51:10,660 --> 00:51:12,650 所有事物都各就其位 each thing in its place. 553 00:51:14,070 --> 00:51:17,430 你却把它们尽数颠覆 You have left nothing standing. 554 00:51:18,440 --> 00:51:20,460 将它献给上帝吧 以它的这副模样 Give it to God just as it is. 555 00:51:20,570 --> 00:51:22,840 你没有理解 You can't understand. 556 00:51:23,510 --> 00:51:25,570 你以为我会这么快就变得顺从！ You think I'm so quickly meek! 557 00:51:25,980 --> 00:51:27,880 自尊依然存在于我…… The pride still left in me - 558 00:51:27,980 --> 00:51:30,410 将你的自尊 连同所有一切 献给祂 Give Him your pride along with everything else. 559 00:51:30,750 --> 00:51:32,050 把一切献给祂 Give Him everything. 560 00:51:56,070 --> 00:51:57,670 你疯了 What madness. 561 00:51:58,410 --> 00:52:00,240 原谅我 Forgive me. 562 00:52:00,910 --> 00:52:02,810 上帝并不是酷刑者 God is no torturer. 563 00:52:03,580 --> 00:52:05,740 祂希望我们对自己慈悲 He wants us to be merciful with ourselves. 564 00:52:06,990 --> 00:52:10,280 所作已作 我不能再做什么了 What's done is done. There's nothing I can do. 565 00:52:31,040 --> 00:52:32,630 愿和平与你同在 Peace be with you. 566 00:52:41,320 --> 00:52:44,310 我必须立马离开庄园 前往东巴勒家 I had to leave immediately thereafter for Dombasle 567 00:52:44,520 --> 00:52:46,920 到家的时候已经很晚了 and arrived home very late. 568 00:52:54,630 --> 00:52:58,500 老园丁克洛维斯将一个伯爵夫人寄来的小包裹交给我 Clovis, the old gardener, gave me a parcel from the countess. 569 00:52:59,400 --> 00:53:01,370 我知道里面是什么 I knew what was in it. 570 00:53:01,540 --> 00:53:04,570 那枚小小的项链坠子 照片已不在 链子也坏了 The small medallion, now empty, and its broken chain. 571 00:53:05,480 --> 00:53:07,210 还有一封信 There was a letter as well. 572 00:53:09,710 --> 00:53:12,310 "亲爱的神父 我对那个年轻的生命无望的回忆 "Dear Father, the hopeless memory of one young child 573 00:53:12,520 --> 00:53:15,510 "将我与所有事物隔绝开来 饱尝孤独 had me isolated from everything in a terrifying solitude, 574 00:53:16,320 --> 00:53:19,480 "而现在看来 另外一个孩子已将我从中拯救出来 and it seems as if another child has drawn me out of it. 575 00:53:20,630 --> 00:53:23,820 "我希望称呼你为孩子没有让您觉得屈尊 I hope I don't hurt your pride by calling you a child. 576 00:53:24,300 --> 00:53:27,660 "你是上帝的孩子 愿上帝永远如此呵护你 You are one, and may God keep you so always. 577 00:53:31,640 --> 00:53:33,870 "我自问你是如何做到的 I ask myself how you did it, 578 00:53:34,240 --> 00:53:36,170 "或者说 我不再探问了 or, rather, I have ceased to ask. 579 00:53:36,270 --> 00:53:37,740 "怎么样都好 All is well. 580 00:53:38,580 --> 00:53:40,910 "我之前并不相信能做到顺从 I didn't believe resignation was possible, 581 00:53:41,710 --> 00:53:44,440 "而事实上我感受到的也并非顺从 and in fact it's not resignation that's come over me. 582 00:53:44,650 --> 00:53:47,580 "我不是顺从了 而是感到幸福 I'm not resigned - I'm happy. 583 00:53:49,550 --> 00:53:51,320 "我不再渴望任何东西 I desire nothing. 584 00:53

很少有人可以像布列松那样纯粹。
影片中的第一人称给予一种孤独的，静谧的气氛，日记式的独白加强了这一点。牧师的情感对于这种氛围下于看者来说非常强烈，甚至令人感同身受，仿佛置身于世界唯剩一人那样的感情里， 几乎可以忽略所有而只凭情感去感受，我相信很少有什么片子可以做到。比如他说：“我没有兴趣讲别人所谓的秘密。。。这仿佛在向我的伤口撒盐。。 ”
事实上或许也只有这么做才能领会到布列松的真实意图。这种真诚让人感动，甚至心惊。我们可以从人们任何的一丝表情中洞察到人的本心，从极端的沉默和静止中感受到一种回音。即使神父没有救赎得了谁，甚至是自己。然而不论世界如何变化，我们依然信仰。如同结尾他说，“有什么关系，一切都是慈悲的。”
影像其实有种贫乏感，没有过多的动作，即使神父死时也没有给予过多的喧嚣描述，但正是如此，我们才能够从神情中，从话语中，从为数不多的动作里体会出那一丝一毫的情感交互，而不被任何花俏所打扰，我相信布列松希望人们更加集中在对体验一个人的感受上，甚至是穿透肉体发现灵魂正蛰伏其上，而不是其他别的什么东西。
比如当牧师去看病时，影片没有给予牧师在房间里获知他将死的镜头，而是慢慢走出来，接行李时略微迟缓的反应我们可以感受到他是多么难过。即使对宗教没有认识，我们同样也可以感受到伯爵夫人将项链扔进壁炉，而牧师又将项链捡回来时的那样的心境。
想想《圣女贞德》，吕克贝松的那部圣女贞德，不论她将贞德讲得再传奇，再非凡，那也离我们相去甚远。确实，我们知道贞德传奇的一生又有什么用呢。或许只有在布列松的贞德里我们才能感受到圣女贞德真正的苦难以及信仰。
如同巴赞对此片的所说的一样，“无法用双唇读出的语言必然是灵魂的心声。”

看完小说后，又把电影看了一遍。再优秀的改编电影也不可能穷尽原著的构想，况且布列松根本也没有想在改编上花太多心思，对话大量删减，场景变换尽量简化。虽然布列松对原作者的敬仰很明显，但他不是个喜欢运用对话推进故事的人，所以影片呈现出来，少了原著强烈的思辨色彩，多的是画面本身传达出来的韵味。
作为导演，此时的布列松已经具有了“布列松风格”的一切特征，音响和画面总是交替着，互相追逐着，人物的声音先出现，然后拍说话的人，或者人物的眼神先表现出关注的内容，画外音再跟进解释；还有他特别喜欢的手部动作的特写……总之布列松永远只给你展现空间的一部分，或声音或画面或者人体的一部分，他非常懂得省略的艺术，懂得操纵画面内外相互呼应的关系，懂得把镜头内的东西延伸出去，所以虽然他的电影节奏不快（简直给观众一种在读书的错觉），但你总有期待，总有思考的时间。电影的大部分镜头采用近景（人物胸部以上），或者从中景推到近景。我以前都不知道，这样密集的近景会给人非常压抑的感觉，因为你会把精力完全放在注意人物的表情上，而布列松的人物每个神情都有特定含义，盯着各种各样的脸看，就有被各种想法包围起来的感觉，这不正是小教士的感受吗？特别喜欢一处剪辑：小教士来回走，愁容满面的拍打着晾晒的被子，这个画面淡出，雪片飞舞的画面淡入，镜头推近小教士房间的窗口，他在写日记……镜头交替中，画外音没有停，被子和雪片画面的叠加，就好像是被子出了棉絮，整个转接优美自然，情绪连贯。即使我觉得这部电影的精神内涵完全禁锢在原著中，甚至出于宗教热情，把主人公描写得过于悲壮，没有像后来的《少女莫夏特》那样加入更多主动的思考，但是我必须叹服布列松的导演天赋。

1950年的黑白片《一个乡村牧师的日记》（Journal d'un curé de campagne / Diary of a Country Priest ）绝不是一部轻松愉悦的电影。不论你的宗教背景是不是天主教，那人性中共有的悲悯，爱心，和堕落，仇恨一起，都会击中每一个人的灵魂。

电影改编自1937年法国作者贝尔纳诺斯Georges Bernanos（1888～1948）的日记体同名原著，天主教的作者，天主教的背景，天主教的演员，怎么看都是一场电影性的布道，但这个布道的内容却是沉重多于喜乐，痛苦多于恩典，直到最后，小神父死了，在画外音的日记朗读中，那一句"All is grace”才解放了小神父的灵魂，也释放了我们的无处可藏的悲伤。

电影的开场就是小神父那一种痛苦而又无奈的姿态，而摄像机也愿意长久地在他的脸上留连，下一个镜头就是伯爵和他情妇的脸，违反常规的偏爱局部镜头而非交代整体环境。但这就是导演的用意。他的其他的违反电影常规的特点还包括，通篇的画外音，不厌其烦的夹杂在早已通过画面表达出的情景中，平淡地叙事，没有阴阳顿挫，没有高低起伏；过多的局部特写，脸部的表情；简单到简陋的布景，呈现在我们面前的是荒凉的村庄，贫瘠的土地，而与它对比的，是人那永远不会改变的诡诈内心。

这些特点，在普通人看来是枯燥无味的表现手法，在学院派那里却构成了这部电影的伟大之处，用画外音的叙说，把文学和电影学超验的结合起来，安德烈巴赞说：“我们通过这一无可辩驳的美学实例体验到了一种绝妙的纯电影的杰作……在这里，空荡荡、没有画面的，完全让位于文学的银幕，标志着电影现实主义的胜利。”

而这个导演最让我觉得着迷的地方，是他那锲而不舍的思考者的品格。就像电影中那个持守自己信仰的小神父，有一颗真诚，怜悯的心，却又生活在不被人理解的痛苦中，但仍然尽自己的力量来帮助别人的灵魂。我不知道Bresson是什么样的人，因为关于他的私人生活的记录少的可怜，连他的出生日期也没人敢肯定是1901或1907，有人说他是"Christian atheist”，有人说他是敬虔的天主教徒，他一生超过90年的生命也只拍了区区13部电影，但这丝毫不影响他的电影对后世的影响。在他看来，导演是可以被忽略，导演的名字可以缩小到不必要的位置甚至忽略，倒可以把演员的名字放大字体打在前面。但搞笑的是，他作为导演却登上了Senses of Cinema杂志评选的最伟大导演的第四位，而他的电影却没有一个进前十。

这并不是偶然。我在《一个乡村牧师的日记》中，看到的是一种作者电影的思索，一种诗意现实主义的精致。虽然他不属于任何流派，但他对电影表达人的灵魂轨迹的思考，将电影带到了一个新的领域。在那里，他实验着自己的“电影学”（cinematography）。坚持电影要与其他艺术形式分开，尤其是戏剧，用摄像机去发现一种“未知”。在他看来，知名演员只会把观众带向一种“已知”，他曾经在访谈中说，“我们目前看到的电影不是电影，无一例外，它只是被摄了像的戏剧罢了。其表达方式是戏剧的表达方式，也就是说，演员有模仿、有功作的表达方式。电影，如果它真想成为电影，就绝对应该据弃一切戏剧的表达方式。只要存在戏剧表达就不存在电影表达。”

所以在两部电影之后，他从《一个乡村牧师的日记》开始使用非职业演员。用他的话来说就是“模型”（models）。他不厌其烦的训练这些演员的动作，姿态，一举一动都反复很多遍，就像弹钢琴练基本功，只有反复练习手指的动作，最后已经完全忘记手指动作，乐曲就自然而然的流动出来了。而“模型”训练到最后，做动作的时候完全摒弃自我意识，灵魂也就自然而然地流露出来了。所以，他的“电影学”实际都是为表现人的“灵魂轨迹”而服务的。还有他的取景，能简则简，尽量缩小观众的视觉范围，于他觉得多余的都剔除出镜头，强调局部动作，神态，这样，观众才能心无旁骛地投入到角色中，以一种积极地视角来参与到其中，而不是被动的接受角色的行为。


罗伯特·布烈松费劲周折所做的，就是要我们真切的体会到电影中那忍辱负重的小神父的灵魂之旅。与他一道，来探寻神与人，人与人之间微妙的关系。有人归结影响布列松的电影的三个元素：天主教主题（Catholicism），早期他做画家时候的经历，以及他在二战时做囚犯的经历。这部电影就是典型的天主教主题，小神父来到一个教区任职，但他发现教区的教徒却早已丧失了信仰，那十字架只是慰藉心灵的摆设，而不是他们灵魂的救赎。视财如命的老头，欢歌艳舞的青年，还有信奉科学主义的医生，都使初来乍到的小神父迷茫失望。唯一能够和他沟通的人是旁边教区的达西神父，但这个肥头大耳的神父早已在多年的工作中世俗化，只关心怎样能坐得稳，才不管人的灵魂。身体的病弱，灵魂的痛苦，他只能写在日记中，只能与神分享。那个医生，是个正直坚强的人，也很有思想和智慧，但他不信上帝，唯在思索中痛苦。小神父一直以一种怜悯的眼神看着他，却不知要从何说起。直到听说医生自杀的消息，他的脸因为一个灵魂的失丧而痛苦忧伤。

伯爵一家是重点介绍的对象，冷酷而且淫乱的伯爵，早已对上帝灰心的伯爵夫人，和仇恨长辈的伯爵女儿，他也只有始终用他那如耶稣基督一般怜悯的目光看着他们，而无能为力。才知道人心是多么可怕，自己的力量又是多么有限，那从来没有成功的计划无限期的搁浅了。于是他挣扎痛苦，却没有放弃，最后，唯一的一个灵魂被救赎的是伯爵夫人，仇恨和苦毒使人陷在自己的网罗里逃脱不出，但神的爱和恩典从来没有远离，“忧伤痛悔的灵我从不轻看”。

电影中的小神父时常表情痛苦，对人们的恶劣行为无可奈何，帮助反而被人诬陷，眼看着世人犯罪，就像那舍己的耶稣。耶稣还没上十字架的时候，有一次人们捉了一个妓女来到耶稣的面前问他怎么处置，为要试探他，按犹太人的律法，是要用石头打死她，但按罗马的法律，要带到审判官的面前，耶稣却说，你们中间谁没罪的，就可以用石头打死她。结果叫嚣的人群从老到少一个一个的散去。只有耶稣还站在那里，他就对那妓女说，“去吧，我也不定你的罪，从此以后不要再犯了。”罪是要受罚，但耶稣没有破坏神的律法和公义，而是藉着自己，上十字架替我们死，我们包括那妓女的罪，就都归到本无罪的耶稣头上，神的爱就显明了。在小神父和伯爵夫人对话的时候，伯爵夫人痛苦于上帝没有公义，但小神父说，如果神将善和恶的标准完全显明，那我们没有一个人可活了。到头来，我们都是配不上他的恩典的，但他的爱却籍着十字架白白的显给我们。

导演的电影多是改编自探索灵魂的小说，狄德罗(Diderot 1713-1784)(Les Dames),，陀斯妥也夫斯基(Dostoevsky, 1821-1881) (Une Femme douce and Quatre nuits)，托尔斯泰Tolstoy (L’Argent)， Bernanos (Journal and Mouchette)。预定论和人的自由意志（free-will versus determinism）自始至终是导演不变的话题。也许我们并不信上帝，但我想，只要不是坚定的存在主义者，就会不免偏向一种高于人意志的掌管宇宙的主权，不管这主权是什么，这一种灵魂的共鸣是超越文化界限的，而很多中国电影中对灵魂的探索，却在那不可靠的宿命论和没有根基的自由主义中摇摆不定，失去了重心，跌入了肤浅的鸿沟。

导演在影片后半段安插了一个青年军官，用摩托车送即将离开教区的小神父，这是影片最为欢快轻松的一段，小神父露出了唯一一次开心的笑容，他好像重新年轻了起来，连天也跟着晴朗起来，观众也在这里有了喘息的机会。其实他和这个青年军官一样大，但他的灵魂负担却使他过早的憔悴，小青年的单纯和喜乐感染了他，导演也大概是向往这样的人生，就像《七封印》里的小丑一家，单纯快乐的信靠，正是伯格曼和布列松这些徘徊在天堂门口的知识分子渴慕的。我想这也是我们普通人的愿望吧，耶稣基督说，“凡要承受神国的，若不像这小孩子，断不能进去。”简单明确，既然我们的灵魂承受不了做这个小神父，那就做那个快乐的青年，专心仰望那使我们信心创始成终的耶稣，是最幸福的人生。



后记

《一个乡村牧师的日记》，是我一直冷藏在柜子里害怕欣赏不了的艺术品。过去，我有一套对dvd的观看思路，就是那些被冠为伟大，深奥，艺术，哲理的影片都是积攒起来束之高阁等哪一天思想有了顿悟灵魂有了提升之后再欣赏的，否则结局不是我在呼呼大睡中侮辱了艺术，就是看完后懊恼于我愚笨的思想为什么不能理解它的伟大之处。其实后者是我最害怕的，我怕看到自己的肤浅和恶俗，在看了那么久电影，学了那么久电影之后，发现自己实际上不适合艺术。

最近，我却突然间想看那些所谓的艺术电影了。因为对灵魂的探索是人类共通的语言，真正的艺术是没有界限的，是一种心灵的共鸣，就像耶稣基督的爱，穿越2000年，穿越国界，在我们身上真真切切的实现。但不论是不是基督徒，我们一生都在寻找所谓的真理，我们的灵魂从来就是在寻找中不断追求，迷茫，否定，堕落，痛苦，而找不到拯救的。共产主义，存在主义，尼采主义，看似深奥的哲理其实是把人带向更痛苦的深渊。如果我们是存在先于本质，就像所谓的自由主义者追求的，按自由意志随意选择，无政府，无道德的自由，是容许我们不受任何限制在肉体中堕落的，杀人，乱伦，偷窃，毁坏，就是对我们自身肉体最高意义的承认，如果这样的自由能完全的满足人类需要，倒是简单了。但存在主义给的这条看似自由的道路通向的却是死亡。因为人不光是有肉体的，神给了我们一个区别于动物的灵，在堕落放逐中因寻不见真理就痛苦。而大部分中国人，看到痛苦，看到罪恶，看到堕落，只能哀叹时代，社会，制度，感叹人生来就是受苦的，但却找不到出路。终究那些思索又得不到答案的人，不外乎把自己与外界隔离，“眼不见为净”，追求一种庄子“独善其身”的“逍遥”，免得沾一身脏；而其他人，干脆连思索也放弃，被一种悲观的宿命论辖制，甘心做学校，工作，金钱，地位，制度，儿女的奴仆，这一切都可以成为我们的神，唯独那一位，远远高过人类智慧所能测度的，却又从无限化为有限的肉身替我们死在十字架上真真切切的引领我们走向生的神，我们看不到。按某些人的观点，那是太虚幻的，是西方的神秘主义。从科学主义的角度来看，那创世的宇宙大爆炸理论却要比白纸黑字的圣经更要神秘主义，耶稣说，“我就是道路，真理，生命，若不藉着我，没有人能到父那里去”，清清楚楚，没有第二条路，没有另外一种可能，这就是神的爱和恩典，让我们的灵，不至灭亡，反得永生。

P.S.这个版本的翻译实在是差劲，让我只能在猜测中揣摩，而很多重要的对话都被翻译的支离破碎，希望以后能看到更好的版本。

Bibliography：

Robert Bresson： http://archive.sensesofcinema.com/contents/directors/02/bresson.html

The Film of Robert Bresson： http://www.brightlightsfilm.com/24/bresson.html

Diary of a Country Priest ： http://www.decentfilms.com/sections/reviews/diaryofacountrypriest.html

百度 罗伯特·布烈松： http://baike.baidu.com/view/268743.html

豆瓣 罗贝尔?布雷松： http://www.douban.com/group/15632/

豆瓣 一个乡村牧师的日记： http://www.douban.com/subject/1401618/